Rave
I'll do a filp :3
- Apr 6, 2023
- 3
Most people here are depressed and gloomy, and I don't blame them - depression is a bitch. Suicidal thoughts take all your happiness away.
I, however, for the first time in my life feel truly happy. The end is near. I won't ever be bullied again. I won't ever be called ugly again. I won't ever be laughed at again. I won't ever be hurt again. I won't ever be forced to do things I don't want to do again. I won't have to look in the mirror and cry upon seeing myself. Absolute freedom.
Most people don't go through with their plans because they don't want to hurt their loved ones - a noble act, putting others before yourself, I respect that. Thankfully I won't have to go through that emotional dilemma, as I have literally 0 friends, not even acquaintances, and my Mother has officially stated that she wishes I was never born. Wish granted.
Guess I was just born in the wrong body. That 5% of societal waste. Awful genes, poverty, lack of social skills and any confidence, low intelligence, weak body, zero attractiveness, etc. Despite trying to change all these things all my life, I was not once successful. Sucks to suck I guess. Life is brutal. Death on the other hand, is always fair.
I found a method that will work for me. In my country lethal substances are very easily accessible for cheap. I acquired everything I need for the SN CTB, even the optional stuff, all for under 20 bucks (A total steal, I know, I'm proud of myself too). I will do everything according to instructions to ensure I won't wake up ever again and remain happy forever :D.
I want to wait another month or so, for my 18th birthday (that I will celebrate alone as always). During that time I will finish all my business, tie all the loose ends, make peace with my death, stuff like that.
I'm so grateful this forum exists. It helped me in so many ways. The only place on the whole earth that took mercy on me and helped to end my undeserved suffering. Screw everything else, stay happy y'all!
I, however, for the first time in my life feel truly happy. The end is near. I won't ever be bullied again. I won't ever be called ugly again. I won't ever be laughed at again. I won't ever be hurt again. I won't ever be forced to do things I don't want to do again. I won't have to look in the mirror and cry upon seeing myself. Absolute freedom.
Most people don't go through with their plans because they don't want to hurt their loved ones - a noble act, putting others before yourself, I respect that. Thankfully I won't have to go through that emotional dilemma, as I have literally 0 friends, not even acquaintances, and my Mother has officially stated that she wishes I was never born. Wish granted.
Guess I was just born in the wrong body. That 5% of societal waste. Awful genes, poverty, lack of social skills and any confidence, low intelligence, weak body, zero attractiveness, etc. Despite trying to change all these things all my life, I was not once successful. Sucks to suck I guess. Life is brutal. Death on the other hand, is always fair.
I found a method that will work for me. In my country lethal substances are very easily accessible for cheap. I acquired everything I need for the SN CTB, even the optional stuff, all for under 20 bucks (A total steal, I know, I'm proud of myself too). I will do everything according to instructions to ensure I won't wake up ever again and remain happy forever :D.
I want to wait another month or so, for my 18th birthday (that I will celebrate alone as always). During that time I will finish all my business, tie all the loose ends, make peace with my death, stuff like that.
I'm so grateful this forum exists. It helped me in so many ways. The only place on the whole earth that took mercy on me and helped to end my undeserved suffering. Screw everything else, stay happy y'all!
