imnot_bunni
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- Mar 2, 2023
- 6
I always felt out of place, like I didn't understand life. I hate the way I think, feel, act, look, everything. No matter how hard I try to improve, I always end up repeating the same cycles and finding myself hopeless.
I hate how I am with people. I'm somone who feels very deeply and intensely, especially for people. I have so much love for everyone around me. I love people in general. I crave deep connection with everyone. I love observing the little things about people, hearing their thoughts, learning their likes, dislikes, past, everything. There's nothing "good" or "bad" about anyone in my head, it's just where they are in life from everything they've experienced. It's all beautiful to me
I get strongly attached to people. I've had an issue with that from as far back as I can remember. I loved being around people all the time, talking to them nonstop, and forming deep connections. Later on, my attachments became more unhealthy and intense, especially with where I'm at right now. I've been feeling extremely lonely and isolated lately and hold onto anyone I feel connected too. It's so chaotic for me especially with people I have feelings for. I'm constantly scared of them losing interest, not being good enough, being abandoned, and anything else that'll make them leave. I get so hurt when it feels like they don't care too. My love is so intense and almost obsessive and I keep realizing people just don't love the same way.
My expectations aren't even that high right now. I wanna at least be understood and seen for who I am. I hate needing a friend and having no one talk to which is why I'm even posting this here in the first place.
Relationships are so difficult, intense, and scary for me. I'm tired of feeling so alone. It's like I have no purpose outside of a relationship then life becomes hell when I'm in one because I keep fucking up and can't let people go. Abandonment is seriously the worst thing I've ever experienced. I just want a genuine deep connection with someone but it never works out. I wish people were serious about relationships and more understanding of what someone's gonna go through. I understand and respect they wanna leave but I don't get why. As corny as it sounds, I love people so strongly that I would do literally anything to work things out and improve it for both of us. I lose it when it hits me that I never even meant that much to them and they're gonna be gone.
I hate how I am with people. I'm somone who feels very deeply and intensely, especially for people. I have so much love for everyone around me. I love people in general. I crave deep connection with everyone. I love observing the little things about people, hearing their thoughts, learning their likes, dislikes, past, everything. There's nothing "good" or "bad" about anyone in my head, it's just where they are in life from everything they've experienced. It's all beautiful to me
I get strongly attached to people. I've had an issue with that from as far back as I can remember. I loved being around people all the time, talking to them nonstop, and forming deep connections. Later on, my attachments became more unhealthy and intense, especially with where I'm at right now. I've been feeling extremely lonely and isolated lately and hold onto anyone I feel connected too. It's so chaotic for me especially with people I have feelings for. I'm constantly scared of them losing interest, not being good enough, being abandoned, and anything else that'll make them leave. I get so hurt when it feels like they don't care too. My love is so intense and almost obsessive and I keep realizing people just don't love the same way.
My expectations aren't even that high right now. I wanna at least be understood and seen for who I am. I hate needing a friend and having no one talk to which is why I'm even posting this here in the first place.
Relationships are so difficult, intense, and scary for me. I'm tired of feeling so alone. It's like I have no purpose outside of a relationship then life becomes hell when I'm in one because I keep fucking up and can't let people go. Abandonment is seriously the worst thing I've ever experienced. I just want a genuine deep connection with someone but it never works out. I wish people were serious about relationships and more understanding of what someone's gonna go through. I understand and respect they wanna leave but I don't get why. As corny as it sounds, I love people so strongly that I would do literally anything to work things out and improve it for both of us. I lose it when it hits me that I never even meant that much to them and they're gonna be gone.