I started talking with someone. Am I terrible for being on here?

[sincerely dead]

I've started texting with a guy who wants to take me out on a date on the first week of July.
But here I am, knowingly WANTING to CTB but also knowing I don't quite have the courage.

Is it wrong of me to talk to him? Am I supposed to start isolating and slowly disappear so that it is easier for everyone if I do go sooner than expected?

Again I don't have immediate plans. But…

 

[EternalShore]

Certainly not! Enjoy life (if you are able) while you still have it! :D I would kill for something like that right about now personally! >_<

 

[FuneralCry]

I would always see it as better to avoid other people personally, but it's up to you what to do. And anyway none of us are obligated to continue existing here even if death upsets other people, we all have to cease existing someday and that's the reality, we are just waiting to die.

 

[Dot]

I've started texting with a guy who wants to take me out on a date on the first week of July.
But here I am, knowingly WANTING to CTB but also knowing I don't quite have the courage.

Is it wrong of me to talk to him? Am I supposed to start isolating and slowly disappear so that it is easier for everyone if I do go sooner than expected?

Again I don't have immediate plans. But…

U d/ nt hve plns

= up 2 wht u wn2 d/

D8tng mght mkeu feel bettr

 

[Praestat_Mori]

You should enjoy your life as long as you can!

 

[deletedaccount30982]

I am doing the same thing. Maybe you'll get lucky and the relationship will lessen your desire to CTB. If not I would personally keep the relationship more "friends with benefits"esque so that he doesn't get hurt as bad. It's all up to you however. I hope this relationship goes well for you!

 

[SpiderLink]

I've started texting with a guy who wants to take me out on a date on the first week of July.
But here I am, knowingly WANTING to CTB but also knowing I don't quite have the courage.

Is it wrong of me to talk to him? Am I supposed to start isolating and slowly disappear so that it is easier for everyone if I do go sooner than expected?

Again I don't have immediate plans. But…

You don't have to feel guilty about that! Do what your heart says, not what your brain says (if that makes sense)

 

[MrDarkness]

I've started texting with a guy who wants to take me out on a date on the first week of July.
But here I am, knowingly WANTING to CTB but also knowing I don't quite have the courage.

Is it wrong of me to talk to him? Am I supposed to start isolating and slowly disappear so that it is easier for everyone if I do go sooner than expected?

Again I don't have immediate plans. But…

Congrats on the date, life is lovely enjoy it while you can. Some people tend to not see the joys, good luck and have fun

 

[enough of this]

I've started texting with a guy who wants to take me out on a date on the first week of July.
But here I am, knowingly WANTING to CTB but also knowing I don't quite have the courage.

Is it wrong of me to talk to him? Am I supposed to start isolating and slowly disappear so that it is easier for everyone if I do go sooner than expected?

Again I don't have immediate plans. But…

I think you should go out with him. What have you got to lose? Are you afraid you'll have a good time and won't want to CTB after that?

 

[greywings]

I also think it's worth trying if you feel comfortable with this guy. You never really know what's coming next! You want to ctb now but may be more interested in living later. You also still don't know what the vibes are without a first date!

If things have the potential to work out with this person long term, then avoiding this out of obligation to your ideation may be more troublesome for you down the line. If you do end up deciding ctb would be for the best, there are ways to split on amicable terms beforehand if you are concerned that being partnered will cause you or them trouble.

Personally, I don't think folks who want to CTB have to isolate and just be sad to avoid making other people sad. If your contact with others brings either of you any kind of happiness and understanding, I feel it's a net good, and of more value. Maybe you staying makes his life better. Maybe you going helps him show kindness and helpful understanding to the next person he meets like you.

Who knows! But beyond what it means for others, if your life has a moment that allows you enough cushion to let you plan around either scenario, then please do consider taking the opportunity to raise your joys where you can.