TheCuriousityDude
Childhood favorite character.
- Oct 6, 2018
- 10
Whenever I'm in the moment of extreme depression it feels like I have permanent anhedonia and have never once been happy in my life...
However, before my suicide attempts, I couldn't help but play my favorite video games and listen to my favorite songs beforehand...and whilst trying to commit suicide I'd always get out of the situation before it had any affect, as I'd think back on all the good things in life, despite being depressed in the moment. Therefore meaning I can indeed experience happiness.
My life isn't even bad, I'm just sort of a drama queen who exaggerates who position whenever I'm extremely depressed.
Plus, out of the people in my family, I'm the luckiest. My parents had to grow up in the ghettos in Brazil, and they grew up with a ton of shit siblings, and they were bullied and had to work since 14 years old.
In comparison, I grew up in comfortable apartments in the USA, with zero siblings to bother me, I've never been seriously bullied besies a kid in middle school punching me in P.E class, and I don't have to have a job yet. For now my only job is my AP classes in school.
So logically, I'd be the last person in my family you'd expect to commit suicide.
And I overall am decently happy with my life. I don't think there's overall good reason for suicide. I just sort of gotta get my mind together, and find security within myself.
However, before my suicide attempts, I couldn't help but play my favorite video games and listen to my favorite songs beforehand...and whilst trying to commit suicide I'd always get out of the situation before it had any affect, as I'd think back on all the good things in life, despite being depressed in the moment. Therefore meaning I can indeed experience happiness.
My life isn't even bad, I'm just sort of a drama queen who exaggerates who position whenever I'm extremely depressed.
Plus, out of the people in my family, I'm the luckiest. My parents had to grow up in the ghettos in Brazil, and they grew up with a ton of shit siblings, and they were bullied and had to work since 14 years old.
In comparison, I grew up in comfortable apartments in the USA, with zero siblings to bother me, I've never been seriously bullied besies a kid in middle school punching me in P.E class, and I don't have to have a job yet. For now my only job is my AP classes in school.
So logically, I'd be the last person in my family you'd expect to commit suicide.
And I overall am decently happy with my life. I don't think there's overall good reason for suicide. I just sort of gotta get my mind together, and find security within myself.