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MelancholicMundane

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Sep 16, 2023
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I quit my job 5 months ago and nothing is better. It was a nice job out of college and I was there for around 7 months. My social anxiety was at an all time high and I was absolutely miserable every day after the first 3 months of being there. I had no energy to look for another job and I dreaded waking up each morning. I tried to hold on for a year but started to plan out my CTB on month 4. I gathered all the necessary materials and was planning to CTB in my apartment.

However, after a some deliberation, I ended up quitting my job before I went forward with my CTB and moved back home. I thought I could work on myself, but now all I feel is just worthless for not making any progress. It's been 5 months of unemployment and I just keep getting job rejection after job rejection. I think I fucked up by quitting my job prematurely, but thinking back on those miserable months I feel like I still don't regret quitting. Though, I do regret giving life another try and moving back home. I should have just CTB in that apartment when I was away from my family. Things have not gotten better and I somehow have an even more thorough CTB plan. I regret not CTB earlier and am now struggling with guilt of my family being around if I go through with my current CTB.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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It must be dreadful feeling trapped in that situation, it's really understandable just wishing to be free from it all but anyway I wish you the best.
 

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