Leonard_Bangley39
Hate life but scared of death
- Nov 6, 2025
- 115
i said something insensitive to a dear friend online and hurt them really badly. they ended up removing me because of it. the stress and panic from it all was too much for me and i cut myself 13 times of my right arm, all of them really wide styros.
i scrubbed and washed my arm a bunch in an attempt to prevent the bird from filling with blood and scabbing up, then i just held a towel on them to prevent a mess for a while.
they added me back after a while and said that it was fine but i can tell that it isn't actually fine and i feel awful because of it. i fucked up really bad, i didn't care enough about how they feel and i hurt them because i was insensitive and said things i should've never said. it felt like such a minor thing at the time, i wish i could just undo it all.
i can't forgive myself or let it go.
i scrubbed and washed my arm a bunch in an attempt to prevent the bird from filling with blood and scabbing up, then i just held a towel on them to prevent a mess for a while.
they added me back after a while and said that it was fine but i can tell that it isn't actually fine and i feel awful because of it. i fucked up really bad, i didn't care enough about how they feel and i hurt them because i was insensitive and said things i should've never said. it felt like such a minor thing at the time, i wish i could just undo it all.
i can't forgive myself or let it go.
