Venting i regret not killing myself earlier

[kosmischerunfall]

WOWW, with that being said: nothing changed all false hopes, i got too excited, for some people their life never changes.

i was meant to die early, who could bear such emotional pain?

i thought i was getting normal, but lost my job due to my anxiety, scared to find a new one, ugh...

fuck anxiety.

fuck myself for letting this happen again,
some people are better to off themselves, especially if they can't take care of oneself.

peace

 

[Exhausted546]

WOWW, with that being said: nothing changed all false hopes, i got too excited, for some people their life never changes.

i was meant to die early, who could bear such emotional pain?

i thought i was getting normal, but lost my job due to my anxiety, scared to find a new one, ugh...

fuck anxiety.

fuck myself for letting this happen again,
some people are better to off themselves, especially if they can't take care of oneself.

peace

Same should have ended it a decade ago

 

[SummerChristmasEve]

I feel the exact same way. I should have killed my sled when I was 16. Had plenty of opportunities to do it and I would have died with so much potential.

 

[kunikuzushi]

I feel the same. I wouldn't have had to experience all this pain if i just did it sooner. it's too much to bear.
i wish you peace

 

[Untoten_]

WOWW, with that being said: nothing changed all false hopes, i got too excited, for some people their life never changes.

i was meant to die early, who could bear such emotional pain?

i thought i was getting normal, but lost my job due to my anxiety, scared to find a new one, ugh...

fuck anxiety.

fuck myself for letting this happen again,
some people are better to off themselves, especially if they can't take care of oneself.

peace

Depending on where you're from in the world, firing you for mental health issues (as well as physical disabilities) can REALLY fuck over your previous employer btw… if you want revenge and a payout, you know what to do. It was literally a UN Convention, CRPD, Article 27. (So long as you have evidence of your mental illness, like previous appointments, anything that shows a diagnoses.)

Burn them. Like they did you.

 

[Daphne]

I'm old and have had suicidal tendencies since high school. I'm glad I persevered because situations change often when young and I got to explore and experience good stuff as well as the bad.
The ratio of good to bad life events shifts with age, as there just aren't as many opportunities unless one is well off and connected. Health issues creep up and family members die off so quality of life declines.
Turning 50 was an absolute bummer as I had to accept it was too late to achieve the American dream. Combine that with losing my career & close family, as well as new health challenges led to a nervous breakdown I still haven't recovered from.
I dont regret CTB before then as I had good times and learned a lot. I don't have much to look forward to now and am ready to go.