i really want to be nothing forever

[Darkover]

i hope that when my time comes thats the end for all time i really couldnt go through all the suffering again
no amount of money could make me want to stay this universe is completely shit
not for all the money in the world would i ever want to be alive here ever again
this place promise so much and delivered nothing even worse than that made me live out my misery here
why would anyone want to put themselves into harms way for food drink sex children tv music books art science maths
it's almost completly pointless being alive here theres nothing here that i want everything that i want is a dream away the end

 

[Littlewittlelight]

i hope that when my time comes thats the end for all time i really couldnt go through all the suffering again
no amount of money could make me want to stay this universe is completely shit
not for all the money in the world would i ever want to be alive here ever again
this place promise so much and delivered nothing even worse than that made me live out my misery here
why would anyone want to put themselves into harms way for food drink sex children tv music books art science maths
it's almost completly pointless being alive here theres nothing here that i want everything that i want is a dream away the end

I feel this way now I don't have any will or many desires left. As long as your dopamine is working you would still feel these things after doing them but it could matter less once you have lost the will and dopamine is too less.
I don't think I would live longer if I had money I would use it so recklessly and then get the most of expensive things like kicks do them and get my peace why would I want to live if already could get to experience those especially the kicks? But sadly some of would have to go without experiencing those for whatever reasons we have that's cool tho and it's better to die like Paul morphy maybe I could agree. That's what is most popular and loved.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it sounds ideal to completely cease to exist. The non existent have no worries or concerns and to die literally solves all problems. The thought of existence is not appealing or desirable at all and absolutely nothing could ever make me want to stay here. The thing that I have a problem with is life itself.

As well as that life is so horrifying as such extreme amounts of suffering exists, the human body is designed to torture us in so many ways. I do think deciding to leave is a more rational choice than choosing to stay trapped in this pointless existence where all humans have to look forward to is deterioration from old age. At any moment anyone could end up in the worst pain possible and dying would prevent that possibility.

 

[SunsetPeace]

I feel you. It's far from easy life, in fact you could even say it is the worst of all possible situations, in many ways. The development of a self with constant needs, fears and worries is tiring, to say the least. Hopefully we will all rest in peace for eternity when our time comes. I want you to know that you are not alone in how you feel and everything you feel, be it good or bad, is valid. In the meantime, all we can really do in this life is learn to let go.