I really want suicide pills like N or something, but I don't know how to get it and this is annoying

[Cat5050]

I'm mentally ill and now someone who was my friend, has stopped talking to me, which has hurt me.

 

[ineverlearn]

When someone I care about stops talking to me, that hurt is unbearable. I hope your friend and you find a way to talk again, if that is what you want.