Help i really need help asap

[letmeseethedeath]

hi my little family. i'm here asking for real help. i'm in italy and i'm done with this shit quarantine. i'm not good in my family. since my dad got cancer nobody in the family cares about me. i had to give them my bed and my room so now i """" sleep """" on a small couch just sitting on it. after 5 days i can tell my headaches are terrible i only sleep 3 hours per night and i can't even watch my self in the mirror because i become so ugly. i have so many problems, i wish i can kill my self but it's so hard. i want to know if there is anything i can do to escape from this house and have just a bed for the nights, i don't even care for foods. just to survive a lil bit so i can go away from this hell. help me guys, i'm telling you this crying
plus i just started feeling like my bones hurts a lot
please help me, what can i do?

 

[Darkhaven]

I know the feeling.
Do you have money to rent a room?

 

[letmeseethedeath]

I know the feeling.
Do you have money to rent a room?

i only have 40 euros but due to this virus i can't go to an hotel

 

[Darkhaven]

i only have 40 euros but due to this virus i can't go to an hotel

What about friends/aquaintances of yours?
Can someone you know shelter you away from your family for a while?

 

[Freedent]

My therapist's advice is always the same : just hang on for another week. Killing yourself is a really big decision, so it's nice to leave in peace and sure that everything is in order, doing it while in panic and in pain could lead to a painful fail in your attempt, or regrets in your last moments.
It seems you're suffering a lot, and in a state of panic. Do you have any friends who could host you for a little bit ? Family somewhere ? Even with the virus, what's happening seems urgent.
There's not much here we can do, all i can tell you is that I'm kind of in the same situation and holding on through staying in my room reading, trying to get a little bit of escapism while everything is slowly turning into hell ; so i feel you. I bursted in tears yesterday just because i saw my brother when i was getting something to eat in my kitchen ; i don't feel safe and at home at all.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

What about friends/aquaintances of yours?
Can someone you know shelter you away from your family for a while?

i'm looking for a shelter but none is working due to this virus.. i hate it
i asked some friends but they said her parents are afraid of this virus..
i think this virus is ruining social relationships

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Pm

 

[Erdapfel]

i had to give them my bed and my room

Why? I wouldn't let anybody just get my bed and room. This is considered theft. Also having to sleep in a sitting position is a common torture method. It's called ''stress position''. If I where in your position I would probably try to buy a sleeping bag or at least a mattress or something.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

Why? I wouldn't let anybody just get my bed and room. This is considered theft. Also having to sleep in a sitting position is a common torture method. It's called ''stress position''. If I where in your position I would probably try to buy a sleeping bag or at least a mattress or something.

i'm gonna do it soon but rooms are full

 

[Notabadguy]

i'm gonna do it soon but rooms are full

Be careful, if you want to CTB you need a good method. And, on other hand, if you leave your home, what would you do next? Think it over twice.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

Be careful, if you want to CTB you need a good method. And, on other hand, if you leave your home, what would you do next? Think it over twice.

i want to study and work. they don't let me study. i don't want to be their slave

 

[Notabadguy]

i want to study and work. they don't let me study. i don't want to be their slave

So what? Are you throwing your life? I'm 39. I was very selfdestructive at your age. I recognize the character. I know I'm sounding patronizing, but I don't intend to do so. Keep calm. Find a job that suits you, since you don't have the chance to study, and move from there when you will have saved enough.

You're young. Don't rush into CTB.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

So what? Are you throwing your life? I'm 39. I was very selfdestructive at your age. I recognize the character. I know I'm sounding patronizing, but I don't intend to do so. Keep calm. Find a job that suits you, since you don't have the chance to study, and move from there when you will have saved enough.

You're young. Don't rush into CTB.

can you give me any advice to make a lot of money because i have health problems and i need cares that my parents are not giving me. i have several problems with my kidneys and adrenal. they affects my outside so i have a shitty face and small hands plus i'm short
they didn't care about me since i was born

 

[Suez]

So did they need your room for your dad, because of his cancer? Is that why you were thrown out? How big is the house? Who else is living there with you?

 

[letmeseethedeath]

So did they need your room for your dad, because of his cancer? Is that why you were thrown out? How big is the house? Who else is living there with you?

the "house" is really small only 4 rooms. i'm tired of my mom telling me bad stuff like: "your dad got cancer because of you"

 

[Letmego. Please]

@letmeseethedeath

I guessing your not that old, I don't know about Italy sadly but in the Uk there are support organisations that help young folk in different age groups to first talk about their situations & some that will then offer help to leave the toxic environment that you are in now.

Please give it a little time, you have hopes & dreams, so hang on to them tight, find some support, here at least these things are still functioning as they know households being locked down is increasing abuse of all forms.
Stay safe & fight for what you really want in the future.

((hugs))

 

[letmeseethedeath]

@letmeseethedeath

I guessing your not that old, I don't know about Italy sadly but in the Uk there are support organisations that help young folk in different age groups to first talk about their situations & some that will then offer help to leave the toxic environment that you are in now.

Please give it a little time, you have hopes & dreams, so hang on to them tight, find some support, here at least these things are still functioning as they know households being locked down is increasing abuse of all forms.
Stay safe & fight for what you really want in the future.

((hugs))

i'm trying to be strong, thank you so much. there are not organization that helps young people here

 

[pole]

i'm trying to be strong, thank you so much. there are not organization that helps young people here

do you live in North America?

I'm not sure for places out of North America, but there's tons of at-risk youth shelters across NA, that may help hopefully. Unfortunately, i'm not sure about much outside of NA :/

 

[letmeseethedeath]

do you live in North America?

I'm not sure for places out of North America, but there's tons of at-risk youth shelters across NA, that may help hopefully. Unfortunately, i'm not sure about much outside of NA :/

i live in italy and here things are really bad. right now with this virus looks like a third world war