GoSan1
Misfit
- Nov 7, 2024
- 116
I really messed up today, like really bad.
Since I thought that it was my mother that held me back from fully committing, I talked to her about wanting to commit suicide and somehow thought this would be an understandable thing. I mean wtf is wrong with me, what was I thinking?????
Well, it went as well as it sounds. She was crying and blaming herself for what she had done wrong and how there were people who had it worse.
I do not blame her; it's a motherly instinct that would break any parent's heart.
But I am just so desperate, I can't even think straight anymore, this damned life, what's the point if it's just suffering everywhere??
I wish we would all get our peace and wishes fulfilled.
I at least know how it feels now, to not even have one's parents on your side, so cruel, I am sorry for all who are in the same spot...
Since I thought that it was my mother that held me back from fully committing, I talked to her about wanting to commit suicide and somehow thought this would be an understandable thing. I mean wtf is wrong with me, what was I thinking?????
Well, it went as well as it sounds. She was crying and blaming herself for what she had done wrong and how there were people who had it worse.
I do not blame her; it's a motherly instinct that would break any parent's heart.
But I am just so desperate, I can't even think straight anymore, this damned life, what's the point if it's just suffering everywhere??
I wish we would all get our peace and wishes fulfilled.
I at least know how it feels now, to not even have one's parents on your side, so cruel, I am sorry for all who are in the same spot...