idelttoilfsadness21
自由不迷失수直到死亡
- Jan 6, 2025
- 502
Every time I breathe, I wake up, I think, I eat…
I just think how much I fucking hate everything in this world…
it doesn't make sense… it never fucking made sense!!
you will see a side of me that will rant more times then I have as a bubbly character living my delusional ADHD imaginary daydreaming thoughts (if you see how I talk usually), and this is how I see everyday since being alive and very aware, so sorry if this may be long…
Read at your own time and pace, this is a rant, and if you read it through the end, great!
it's traumatic to be in for long as you deal with both physical and mental imitations, get excluded out socially, deal with race, religion, gender, etc , as your identity, dealing with the factors of your organs reproducing, and if not, you are based solely by your gender if your a girl and gi your a boy, your worth is only created to how much money you make and if you create a family structure and succeed, you have to deal with miscommunication a lot, rude people, delusional, gaslighting people, narcissists, abusers left and right, and based on how you were born, your success rate matters to having privilege, your body doesn't fully fit what is feminine or your face and your face doesn't fit what is fully masculine or your body, and it's equally sad people create concepts too much that they do not truly know what real love is aside from what they see on tv, and even though art imitates real life, people in this world don't know a god damn thing about being performative at its best, and it's quite lacking in quality when you see that what people sell as a product does a better job at making someone more human than when you actually meet them, as you learn they are monsters behind human clothing. This world is full of propaganda, selfishness, greed, destruction, dishonesty, division, and ignorance which is terrifying when you think about how we have made so much into putting a political agenda so much into human anatomy and peoples rights to deal with their bodies, their voices, their gender, their own children, their own LIVES, and especially feel belittling to discredit someone's feelings and their experiences and using any political ideology to justify their existence and their choices for why their feeling that way.
I had a fun time with my little break and got on ep 11 and wonder why so damn much romance genres are so popular than any genre I've seen growing up from both girls and boys in terms of something that is based on fiction yet adds in layers of realism, and it's because people fantasize about the ideological feelings of never having something and when having it, creates a feeling of immersive experience for someone to create that same sense of belief, similar to friendships and friend groups and the dynamics between characters engaging or having a form of identity, and it's not a bad concept, but concepts in this world is a facade as humans are cheats and that's the problem… nothing truly exists in this world and nothing truly matters when you feel that something is so close to being created equally for all in this world but has always been an illustration of what can be for some to achieve if they ever were to have the right access to directing the story they would have sooner, but with all the chaos this world has created in the last years, it will find itself clashed with the mistakes it made and it will be much doomed than recent times and why this world is really bad and why I truly hate it with all my being, especially when it truly goes back on its promises and keeps people back into a dream that isn't achievable, like with me sharing the immersion of love in its form as the true meaning behind how man and woman are created in this world, aside from the biology and function, and how it's achievable parts don't fully add up when you are only seen as a sex machine to birth babies or a man created to work a full time job and or raise a family and be expected to achieve something by his own merits, not to mention women were expected sometime in history to be desirable for centuries based on their bodies alone and their beauty, and in this world, people are made to feel undesired, I welcomed, and belittled by their very existence the moment they are born, yet people don't say it until you are older, but if you are a child, you are protected, until when does it go away?
Did you truly ever cared about them?
Same with genuine people? Same with people who were for their personality? Same with the people you so blindly worship and overlook your true friends or true people? Even with anyone you desire to look like or be in some manner? Did you truly ever cared about them?!?!
This can be said with those who admire their work, their passion, their love for something, etc, but neglect to care for why they took on their roles, and that's the problem with this world… it has a mentality of the survival of the fittest and a lack of awareness to empathy and overall real character, even though people do exist who have that but they aren't allowed to be their true selves…
That's the very definition of hypocrisy, manipulation, and lies and why people shouldn't praise children from the moment they're born and even sharing their love… towards children? What about teens who then comes adults to adults?
This world is a menace and a big joke!!
It has so many helpful advice and solutions yet it is rarely practiced on real people, especially as they know it's better to just rob people of their identity by giving them trauma and taking their money and silencing them.
It conspired lots of ideas and identities for people yet it doesn't give people the immediate benefit for them to actually live, especially when this world has built so much wealth and privilege than many centuries ago to travel and enjoy the world, yet many are still lost and broken or suffering and many didn't choose this path or this world to deal with feeling like that and to have people degrade them further, especially as the rich enjoy themselves, even the ones who have gotten rich from apps apparently or from being mega stars and celebrities, as they continue the cycle the very wealthy aristocrats have been made to do for years, especially as people worship the very grounds they live in, and it brings me to question…
How much I hate this god damn world so damn much and would rather die than exist in it for the rest of my existence that I have left breathing to ctb away from this living nightmare of a hell, and every new day too, there is a problem and drama, and it's also so toxic and constantly filled with fights left and right, and I am tired of dealing with a chaotic mess of a world that has no sense of existing anymore especially as they will bully you for anything, even if you are mentally exhausted or if you are yourself or wishing to be happy…
there's more to it.. can you imagine that?!?
this world is full of so much chaos... it's literal chaos!
I just think how much I fucking hate everything in this world…
it doesn't make sense… it never fucking made sense!!
you will see a side of me that will rant more times then I have as a bubbly character living my delusional ADHD imaginary daydreaming thoughts (if you see how I talk usually), and this is how I see everyday since being alive and very aware, so sorry if this may be long…
Read at your own time and pace, this is a rant, and if you read it through the end, great!
it's traumatic to be in for long as you deal with both physical and mental imitations, get excluded out socially, deal with race, religion, gender, etc , as your identity, dealing with the factors of your organs reproducing, and if not, you are based solely by your gender if your a girl and gi your a boy, your worth is only created to how much money you make and if you create a family structure and succeed, you have to deal with miscommunication a lot, rude people, delusional, gaslighting people, narcissists, abusers left and right, and based on how you were born, your success rate matters to having privilege, your body doesn't fully fit what is feminine or your face and your face doesn't fit what is fully masculine or your body, and it's equally sad people create concepts too much that they do not truly know what real love is aside from what they see on tv, and even though art imitates real life, people in this world don't know a god damn thing about being performative at its best, and it's quite lacking in quality when you see that what people sell as a product does a better job at making someone more human than when you actually meet them, as you learn they are monsters behind human clothing. This world is full of propaganda, selfishness, greed, destruction, dishonesty, division, and ignorance which is terrifying when you think about how we have made so much into putting a political agenda so much into human anatomy and peoples rights to deal with their bodies, their voices, their gender, their own children, their own LIVES, and especially feel belittling to discredit someone's feelings and their experiences and using any political ideology to justify their existence and their choices for why their feeling that way.
I had a fun time with my little break and got on ep 11 and wonder why so damn much romance genres are so popular than any genre I've seen growing up from both girls and boys in terms of something that is based on fiction yet adds in layers of realism, and it's because people fantasize about the ideological feelings of never having something and when having it, creates a feeling of immersive experience for someone to create that same sense of belief, similar to friendships and friend groups and the dynamics between characters engaging or having a form of identity, and it's not a bad concept, but concepts in this world is a facade as humans are cheats and that's the problem… nothing truly exists in this world and nothing truly matters when you feel that something is so close to being created equally for all in this world but has always been an illustration of what can be for some to achieve if they ever were to have the right access to directing the story they would have sooner, but with all the chaos this world has created in the last years, it will find itself clashed with the mistakes it made and it will be much doomed than recent times and why this world is really bad and why I truly hate it with all my being, especially when it truly goes back on its promises and keeps people back into a dream that isn't achievable, like with me sharing the immersion of love in its form as the true meaning behind how man and woman are created in this world, aside from the biology and function, and how it's achievable parts don't fully add up when you are only seen as a sex machine to birth babies or a man created to work a full time job and or raise a family and be expected to achieve something by his own merits, not to mention women were expected sometime in history to be desirable for centuries based on their bodies alone and their beauty, and in this world, people are made to feel undesired, I welcomed, and belittled by their very existence the moment they are born, yet people don't say it until you are older, but if you are a child, you are protected, until when does it go away?
Did you truly ever cared about them?
Same with genuine people? Same with people who were for their personality? Same with the people you so blindly worship and overlook your true friends or true people? Even with anyone you desire to look like or be in some manner? Did you truly ever cared about them?!?!
This can be said with those who admire their work, their passion, their love for something, etc, but neglect to care for why they took on their roles, and that's the problem with this world… it has a mentality of the survival of the fittest and a lack of awareness to empathy and overall real character, even though people do exist who have that but they aren't allowed to be their true selves…
That's the very definition of hypocrisy, manipulation, and lies and why people shouldn't praise children from the moment they're born and even sharing their love… towards children? What about teens who then comes adults to adults?
This world is a menace and a big joke!!
It has so many helpful advice and solutions yet it is rarely practiced on real people, especially as they know it's better to just rob people of their identity by giving them trauma and taking their money and silencing them.
It conspired lots of ideas and identities for people yet it doesn't give people the immediate benefit for them to actually live, especially when this world has built so much wealth and privilege than many centuries ago to travel and enjoy the world, yet many are still lost and broken or suffering and many didn't choose this path or this world to deal with feeling like that and to have people degrade them further, especially as the rich enjoy themselves, even the ones who have gotten rich from apps apparently or from being mega stars and celebrities, as they continue the cycle the very wealthy aristocrats have been made to do for years, especially as people worship the very grounds they live in, and it brings me to question…
How much I hate this god damn world so damn much and would rather die than exist in it for the rest of my existence that I have left breathing to ctb away from this living nightmare of a hell, and every new day too, there is a problem and drama, and it's also so toxic and constantly filled with fights left and right, and I am tired of dealing with a chaotic mess of a world that has no sense of existing anymore especially as they will bully you for anything, even if you are mentally exhausted or if you are yourself or wishing to be happy…
there's more to it.. can you imagine that?!?
this world is full of so much chaos... it's literal chaos!
