I'm sorry life has been painful for you. It does suck that the only chance of life we had was this, and it ended up not being in any of our favors whether health wise, socially, mentally, emotionally, physically, romantically. Life sucks for some currently, and it's great for others. So unfortunate it has come to this. I'm just sorry to my parents I know they would have wanted the best for me however they took a chance at having children and mine just turned out to be unfavorable while my siblings ended up having a life of sociability, and romance and average looks while I fall below average in all areas in life. However it would be selfish of them to be so greedy and expect me to stay alive in misery while they have other children that can pursue life until natural death and to leave me alone and respect my choice.