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JustSwingingTheD
Experienced
- Jan 31, 2022
- 204
At some point i started calling people at my work faggots in a derogatory way, all the while thinking i was not being a homophobe, but that i was just being an asshole. But i was wrong.
I was in an work environment that included a lot of mental abuse, so I wanted to learn how to better hurt other people with words, not caring about what i was saying, essentially to protect myself. For some reason, in most societies its very hurtful to be called a homosexual. Its like being called a slut for a woman. If you want to be mean, its just a place where you naturally go.
Its not about the actual homosexuals any more than the act of calling unpleasant girls/women sluts would be about how you feel about people who actually sell sex. It's just something you say to make the other person feel emasculated, weakened.
That said, i realized that ive probably met people who are actual homosexuals without even knowing it. How would those people feel about themselves if they saw me calling other people faggots? Not very good is my guess.
When I use homophoblic slurs in order to be hurtful, I'm becoming part of the problem. I guess i was aware of this all along, i just felt that the temptation to appear as a "bad" person was too much for me.
In the future i try to remember, if I want to be hurtful there are ways to get around this, i will try to be innovative. It might be kind of like saying "if you feel like saying fuck then just say fudge or something", which is totally fucking lame. But i will do my best to be an asshole without being a homophobe.
I was in an work environment that included a lot of mental abuse, so I wanted to learn how to better hurt other people with words, not caring about what i was saying, essentially to protect myself. For some reason, in most societies its very hurtful to be called a homosexual. Its like being called a slut for a woman. If you want to be mean, its just a place where you naturally go.
Its not about the actual homosexuals any more than the act of calling unpleasant girls/women sluts would be about how you feel about people who actually sell sex. It's just something you say to make the other person feel emasculated, weakened.
That said, i realized that ive probably met people who are actual homosexuals without even knowing it. How would those people feel about themselves if they saw me calling other people faggots? Not very good is my guess.
When I use homophoblic slurs in order to be hurtful, I'm becoming part of the problem. I guess i was aware of this all along, i just felt that the temptation to appear as a "bad" person was too much for me.
In the future i try to remember, if I want to be hurtful there are ways to get around this, i will try to be innovative. It might be kind of like saying "if you feel like saying fuck then just say fudge or something", which is totally fucking lame. But i will do my best to be an asshole without being a homophobe.