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myopybyproxy
flickerbeat \\ gibberish-noise
- Dec 18, 2021
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for reference, this happened in a mental health and eating disorder discord server. this was the entire conversation over the course of two days last week. i dont know why i even bother. the responses and the 'help' in their suggestions make me feel even worse than i did to start. if those things dont work then i truly am beyond hope. but mostly i just feel so fucking alone in this. the mouth hole has mostly healed by now.
[me]:
spent the last hour chewing a hole in my mputh partly hanit partly anxiety i hate this i hate this i haye thid make it fucoing stop
[user 1]:
@myopy that sounds like a suicide crisis hotline or ask your parents for a trip to the ER (grippy sock) visit
[user 2]: This
[me]: dont pull that fucking bullshit on me
[user 1]: No need to lash out at those just trying to offer some kind words and acknowledge your words have been seen. We all know no words are going to magically make you feel better. We've all been there and struggled with these sorts of thoughts.
[me]: yeah except whether they can or not, they dont do anything, they only make it worsr
[user 2]: Honestly, I'd rather have you pissed but alive than dead.
[me]: good god none of you fucking get it do you
[me]:
spent the last hour chewing a hole in my mputh partly hanit partly anxiety i hate this i hate this i haye thid make it fucoing stop
and now intrusive thoughts tp cut my femoral artery to where i cant walk and everything is ruined i dont want to di that why is it in my head
i need to talk to someone but i have no one thrr is no oen i can trust im so fucifn tirrf
youre pathetic shut up nonone wnats to hear tour whinibg
i hate nyself j wisj i was dead
i need to talk to someone but i have no one thrr is no oen i can trust im so fucifn tirrf
youre pathetic shut up nonone wnats to hear tour whinibg
i hate nyself j wisj i was dead
[user 1]:
@myopy that sounds like a suicide crisis hotline or ask your parents for a trip to the ER (grippy sock) visit
Sorry none of us are equipped to handle this sort of thing priperly and ethically.
We love u. Sorry ur suffering so.muchlately
[user 2]: This
Please, get yourself help if you can't handle these thoughts on your own anymore
[me]: dont pull that fucking bullshit on me
and LMAO you well meaning suggedtions are useless i already tried those
should have expected response like this whatver
people jump to psych ward when anyone whos been knows its a factory of iatrogenesis
if im triggering anyone lmk and ill shut up but dont hide behind the guise of caring
this is the sort of response i would have expected from normies
should have expected response like this whatver
people jump to psych ward when anyone whos been knows its a factory of iatrogenesis
if im triggering anyone lmk and ill shut up but dont hide behind the guise of caring
this is the sort of response i would have expected from normies
[user 1]: No need to lash out at those just trying to offer some kind words and acknowledge your words have been seen. We all know no words are going to magically make you feel better. We've all been there and struggled with these sorts of thoughts.
We care, but that's all we can do from here Myopy.
It was a suggestion to reach out to anyone who CAN actually do something for you, not just see your pain. It's fine if that's not good enough, no one thought it was a one and done solution to your woes.
It was a suggestion to reach out to anyone who CAN actually do something for you, not just see your pain. It's fine if that's not good enough, no one thought it was a one and done solution to your woes.
[me]: yeah except whether they can or not, they dont do anything, they only make it worsr
my point was that there js no one that can / does
[user 2]: Honestly, I'd rather have you pissed but alive than dead.
[me]: good god none of you fucking get it do you
its my fault for thinking this would be understandable
i would take my fucked upness somewhere else if i could but there is no place for me
i would take my fucked upness somewhere else if i could but there is no place for me