
goingoutinstyle
Member
- Jul 29, 2021
- 20
I've finally ordered everything I need for the SN protocol and now I'm just waiting for things to come in the mail. Today I got my benzos and I felt so giddy as I picked up the package. It was the happiest I've felt in so long. It look a lot of digging and frustration trying to find everything, but once I finally figured out DNM it all fell into place.
I have no responsibilities for the next two weeks up until my ctb date, so I get to do whatever I want during these final days. I feel so at peace knowing everything will be okay now. All those things that I've been stressing over don't matter anymore. Once I'm gone I'll never feel hurt and nothing will ever be wrong again. Sometimes I can't believe it's real—it's so surreal that I've been dreaming of ctb for so many years and now it's finally within reach.
I have no responsibilities for the next two weeks up until my ctb date, so I get to do whatever I want during these final days. I feel so at peace knowing everything will be okay now. All those things that I've been stressing over don't matter anymore. Once I'm gone I'll never feel hurt and nothing will ever be wrong again. Sometimes I can't believe it's real—it's so surreal that I've been dreaming of ctb for so many years and now it's finally within reach.