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wait i'm goated
- Feb 12, 2023
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everywhere i go, i just cause issues. my existence is unfair, i don't bring any positivity to anyone and i just worsen the lives of everyone around me. i just have so many problems and they spread to the people around me. i'm trying to exist quietly without affecting anyone else, but things keep happening that worsen my life/mental state. as soon as i try to do something to improve that issue, it makes things worse for everyone else.
whenever i vent, the person i'm venting to ends up yapping about what i've said and it makes others annoyed. i really try to appear well and cheerful when around other people, but it gets really hard sometimes and i fail, which leads to people becoming uncomfortable.
i have a lot of issues at work. i'm constantly encouraged to bring up these issues, but i regret it every time. i work with my brothers and i think i've just caused problems for them by bringing up my issues with other people. simply working with them seems to have caused issues.
it's a similar story at home. i have a lot of problems with my brothers (mostly them being very loud late at night and not helping out around the house). i have more issues that i don't even bring up, i only address these things when they start to worsen my mental state. the yelling makes me really anxious but i can't even bring that up. i have to ruin their fun to have any comfort.
i want to exist quietly. i hate being alone because it drives me crazy, but i want to stay away from people so i can stop causing issues for them. even when i'm being all positive, people can recognize that something is wrong and then they start to pity me and they feel the need to baby me. i dull every moment just by existing.
i get that causing problems and even burdening others is just an inevitable aspect of life, but i can't escape it. it happens everywhere i go. i would feel better about it if i at least brought positivity to people, but i can't seem to do that. my existence isn't worth it; my death would be a net positive.
whenever i vent, the person i'm venting to ends up yapping about what i've said and it makes others annoyed. i really try to appear well and cheerful when around other people, but it gets really hard sometimes and i fail, which leads to people becoming uncomfortable.
i have a lot of issues at work. i'm constantly encouraged to bring up these issues, but i regret it every time. i work with my brothers and i think i've just caused problems for them by bringing up my issues with other people. simply working with them seems to have caused issues.
it's a similar story at home. i have a lot of problems with my brothers (mostly them being very loud late at night and not helping out around the house). i have more issues that i don't even bring up, i only address these things when they start to worsen my mental state. the yelling makes me really anxious but i can't even bring that up. i have to ruin their fun to have any comfort.
i want to exist quietly. i hate being alone because it drives me crazy, but i want to stay away from people so i can stop causing issues for them. even when i'm being all positive, people can recognize that something is wrong and then they start to pity me and they feel the need to baby me. i dull every moment just by existing.
i get that causing problems and even burdening others is just an inevitable aspect of life, but i can't escape it. it happens everywhere i go. i would feel better about it if i at least brought positivity to people, but i can't seem to do that. my existence isn't worth it; my death would be a net positive.
