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Jess

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Jun 17, 2021
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I had to get anesthesia and while it was kicking in i started to feel so peaceful. Even after i woke up i was so happy i felt that peace. Before i went to sleep i thought this was the way i wanted to die.
 
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Silenos

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Jul 25, 2020
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Sweet mother of dissociation. I had a similar experience when I did ketamine once and ended up in a k-hole where I was completely disconnected from my body, but could still have thoughts. In a way it felt like being dead, and it's one of the best things I've ever experienced.
 
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LoveTakesManyForms

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Sep 9, 2021
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I went to the ER recently for chronic pain and they gave me nitrous oxide.
At first the strange sensation it caused was irksome/anxiety inducing, but then as it kicked in I started feeling better than I have in years.
What I realised is that I was almost entirely pain free, and the dissociative effect it caused helped me to detach from my constant thoughts of anxiety and death.
So in my own way I can relate somewhat.
I wish I lived in the states so I could get access to fentanyl. I could use it to enjoy some quality time with those I love before finally ODing and leaving this eternally painful plane.
If Fent is synthetic, then perhaps I can make it? I wonder where one would find info on that subject...
 
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wereqryan

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Dec 22, 2018
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God I loved anesthesia. I couldn't even tell the exact moment when I lost consciousness, and while I was unconscious, there was nothing, just void! Its as if I never existed and the world didn't exist to me.
 
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LoveTakesManyForms

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Sep 9, 2021
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God I loved anesthesia. I couldn't even tell the exact moment when I lost consciousness, and while I was unconscious, there was nothing, just void! Its as if I never existed and the world didn't exist to me.
Anaesthetic followed by a high-powered shotgun shell to the head, or a lethal dose of barbiturates etc., would surely be the way to go aye.
Could even chloroform the person whilst they're already asleep so that they don't know it's coming.
It's easy to see why some people pay others to kill them.
 
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wereqryan

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Dec 22, 2018
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Anaesthetic followed by a high-powered shotgun shell to the head, or a lethal dose of barbiturates etc., would surely be the way to go aye.
Could even chloroform the person whilst they're already asleep so that they don't know it's coming.
It's easy to see why some people pay others to kill them.
Overdose of anesthetic is enough to kill.
 
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Apr 13, 2021
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Sweet mother of dissociation. I had a similar experience when I did ketamine once and ended up in a k-hole where I was completely disconnected from my body, but could still have thoughts. In a way it felt like being dead, and it's one of the best things I've ever experienced.

There's nothing like a good acid trip. Do you do Dutch magic truffles?
 
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FuneralCry

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Sep 24, 2020
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I have never been under anaesthesia but I would be interested to know what it is like. It does sound very peaceful. My ideal death is falling asleep and never waking again, that is the type of death we all deserve the option of.
 
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Jess

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Jun 17, 2021
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I have never been under anaesthesia but I would be interested to know what it is like. It does sound very peaceful. My ideal death is falling asleep and never waking again, that is the type of death we all deserve the option of.
It's like falling asleep but unfortunately you wake up
 
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stellabelle

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Dec 14, 2018
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I had to get anesthesia and while it was kicking in i started to feel so peaceful. Even after i woke up i was so happy i felt that peace. Before i went to sleep i thought this was the way i wanted to die.
Oh big time. I heard that. ("Heard" as in slang language to describe agreeing with your observation.)

I have also found peace in places where I was permitted to simply observe time passing.

I have found discord.

I have found a thousand things that would not or could not change.

That is because of refusal to put a stop to harassment or abuse with anything short of physical altercation or force.

Invasiveness. Invasiveness is a problem.
 
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