Venting I never asked to be here

[Pomegranate]

I never asked to be alive. I'm only here because my parents decided to unfortunately have unprotected sex. Now I'm suffering through so many things, be it mental health, sad memories, life, relationships, money. And I'll continue to suffer. Even after I die, who knows, maybe I'll go to hell forever.

I just want nothing. That would be my heaven: to never feel any of this ever again. I don't care about heaven and hell, I just want oblivion. Not asking for much.

 

[figure8]

I think a lot of people on this forum can relate to this, including me. I told my mother I didn't ask to be born on multiple occasions, but back then I was mostly immature and it was the only was for me to express my feelings on living.
I know it's impossible, but I wish we could decide whether we should be born or not. I'd choose not living without a second thought. One cannot feel regret, misery, or even fleeting happiness if one doesn't exist to begin with.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Same, can't handle the pain anymore hope to ctb soon

 

[saddestbunny]

it would make it better if they took accountability for their actions but they never do

 

[CW36]

I believe that many people have children for rather trivial reasons.

Perhaps it was to curb the peer pressure from friends, parents and society in general.

Perhaps it was to alleviate some of the symptoms of a boring, monotonous life.

Perhaps it was FOMO, they needed to know.

Perhaps it was to 'secure' a relationship.

Perhaps it was to train another soldier to work in their shoe shop.

Perhaps it was all of the above and much more.

Was it all worth it?
Perhaps not.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also only wish for nothingness, I've only ever wished for true relief from this existence ever since I was forced here. To me existence is just a futile process of suffering so unnecessary, I could never see it as being desirable, your feelings certainly are understandable, non-existence is the only relief for me as it means safety and freedom from this dreadful reality, I hope you eventually find what you wish for.