Help I need ur honest opinions guys

[Umi__]

Guys I need ur opinions about ctb with firearm and SN, I tried ctb with my firearm yesterday but I don't know... I'm not scared about dying and such. I did my best but I couldn't pulled the trigger... I find a SN (%99.00 pure.), antiemetic and such. I can complete my plan with Sn or pistol what do you guys think (i just want ur honest opinions)

 

[アホペンギン]

It is your choice. It is normal to not be able to pull the trigger and for SN, lots of people can't bring themselves to drink the drink. It is your choice on which method to do, whichever suits you best.

Also, the SN might be marketed as 99% pure but it may be wrong so you should buy tests as well just to be safe.

 

[Umi__]

It is your choice. It is normal to not be able to pull the trigger and for SN, lots of people can't bring themselves to drink the drink. It is your choice on which method to do, whichever suits you best.

Also, the SN might be marketed as 99% pure but it may be wrong so you should buy tests as well just to be safe.

how can I test it and also ofc its up to me but i want other ppls opinion. I saw a blood test

 

[Deleted member 65988]

As much as I've chosen sn as my method, I'd definitely take the pistol as long as it's over .22 caliber though but ideally, I'd prefer a revolver or rifle.

 

[アホペンギン]

how can I test it and also ofc its up to me but i want other ppls opinion. I saw a blood test

The blood test only proves that nitrite is present in the substance rather than showing the purity. Buy some aquarium test strips online, preferably the ones from amazon because they are used the most.

 

[thebookofdisquiet.]

I'd use the gun, it's almost impossible to fail if you aim right and you won't have to worry about feeling bad, vomiting, being found too soon, etc.

But yeah, the only obstacle is the SI, I wish I could help you but it's you against your human nature.

 

[Umi__]

I'd use the gun, it's almost impossible to fail if you aim right and you won't have to worry about feeling bad, vomiting, being found too soon, etc.

But yeah, the only obstacle is the SI, I wish I could help you but it's you against your human nature.

being found too soon is simply impossible for my situation I live alone with my cats but yea vomiting and risks makes me stay away from sn

 

[Deleted member 65988]

I'd use the gun, it's almost impossible to fail if you aim right and you won't have to worry about feeling bad, vomiting, being found too soon, etc.

But yeah, the only obstacle is the SI, I wish I could help you but it's you against your human nature.

Si is just that one thing standing in the way, no matter how deadly a method will be

 

[アホペンギン]

being found too soon is simply impossible for my situation I live alone with my cats but yea vomiting and risks makes me stay away from sn

Offtopic, but, what will happen with your cats when you ctb? :(

 

[Deleted member 65988]

being found too soon is simply impossible for my situation I live alone with my cats but yea vomiting and risks makes me stay away from sn

Not a big fan of the vomiting but it is what it is, there will always be drawbacks in one form or another for each method, just about what you feel you can be personally comfortable with.

 

[Umi__]

The blood test only proves that nitrite is present in the substance rather than showing the purity. Buy some aquarium test strips online, preferably the ones from amazon because they are used the most.

I live in Turkey and really I don't have so many time for shipping

Offtopic, but, what will happen with your cats when you ctb? :(

that part scares me most... I tried partial hanging before and seeing them like that I don't wanna leave them they are my everything

 

[アホペンギン]

I live in Turkey and really I don't have so many time for shipping

that part scares me most... I tried partial hanging before and seeing them like that I don't wanna leave them they are my everything

Oh okay, then the blood test will suffice, then. Just be careful because the SN may not be pure enough, the seller may be lying.

Do you want to try giving your cats to family members?

 

[Umi__]

Oh okay, then the blood test will suffice, then. Just be careful because the SN may not be pure enough, the seller may be lying.

Do you want to try giving your cats to family members?

they all died in a car accident 2 weeks ago

 

[アホペンギン]

they all died in a car accident 2 weeks ago

fuck… I'm so sorry…

What will happen with your cats, then, after you ctb?

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Frankly, whether I'd choose SN or a gun completely depends on the type and caliber of the gun. If it's some .22 pea-shooter, I'd take SN any day over that. It also depends on how you plan to use the gun, where on your person you plan on shooting yourself. The only fool-proof firearm method, IMO, is with a shotgun blast into the mouth that takes out 1/2 the back of your head. It's gruesome for sure, but effective. Holding a gun to the side of your head, like a pistol, introduces a lot of uncertainty into the equation, like what if you flinch just a little while squeezing the trigger and only seriously injure yourself.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

they all died in a car accident 2 weeks ago

Holy hell, I'm so sorry about that. Fuck I'm really sorry about that, to hear about this is just absolutely sad.

 

[Umi__]

fuck… I'm so sorry…

What will happen with your cats, then, after you ctb?

honestly I don't know... I tried to contact with my friends and try to give them but they don't want it I don't know...

Frankly, whether I'd choose SN or a gun completely depends on the type and caliber of the gun. If it's some .22 pea-shooter, I'd take SN any day over that. It also depends on how you plan to use the gun, where on your person you plan on shooting yourself. The only fool-proof firearm method, IMO, is with a shotgun blast into the mouth that takes out 1/2 the back of your head. It's gruesome for sure, but effective. Holding a gun to the side of your head, like a pistol, introduces a lot of uncertainty into the equation, like what if you flinch just a little while squeezing the trigger and only seriously injure yourself.

yea I have a pistol and it's not high caliber thats why I'm more into sn method rn but I can't wait to test my sn don't know what to do

 

[アホペンギン]

honestly I don't know... I tried to contact with my friends and try to give them but they don't want it I don't know...

yea I have a pistol and it's not high caliber thats why I'm more into sn method rn but I can't wait to test my sn don't know what to do

Try sending them to a rescue place, they will be brought to a good home or if you got the cats from a breeder then the breeder may be willing to take the cats back.

 

[Umi__]

Holy hell, I'm so sorry about that. Fuck I'm really sorry about that, to hear about this is just absolutely sad.

it's okey guys I feel guilty but yea it is what it is

 

[thebookofdisquiet.]

honestly I don't know... I tried to contact with my friends and try to give them but they don't want it I don't know.

Do you think you could find any kind of shelter for them? Any place that takes care of stray animals and put them for adoption?

 

[Deleted member 65988]

yea I have a pistol and it's not high caliber thats why I'm more into sn method rn but I can't wait to test my sn don't know what to do

Understandable if its anything over .22 caliber because I don't think its worth the risk at that point. It really depends where your sn comes from, if it is a local chemical supplier then chances are the purity is as it is because what reason would they have to sell something that isn't as pure as stated especially since they aren't solely selling to private individual but companies and labs for testing especially in the case of AR grade sn which is meant for lab testing only.

 

[Umi__]

Try sending them to a rescue place, they will be brought to a good home or if you got the cats from a breeder then the breeder may be willing to take the cats back.

rescue place and shelters in Turkey are the worsts... I adopt them in rescue place I'll never give them back to that

Understandable if its anything over .22 caliber because I don't think its worth the risk at that point. It really depends where your sn comes from, if it is a local chemical supplier then chances are the purity is as it is because what reason would they have to sell something that isn't as pure as stated especially since they aren't solely selling to private individual but companies and labs for testing especially in the case of AR grade sn which is meant for lab testing only.

I buy it from a company but it was cheap (it was the most priced option in Turkey but very cheap in worldwide)

 

[Deleted member 65988]

@jar-baby off-topic but surprised I'd ever see you react to anything I say.

 

[アホペンギン]

rescue place and shelters in Turkey are the worsts... I adopt them in rescue place I'll never give them back to that

Then, the best option is just to let them on the streets. They are taken care of well on the streets because they are provided with food and water, shelter too.

 

[Umi__]

Then, the best option is just to let them on the streets. They are taken care of well on the streets because they are provided with food and water, shelter too.

yes I live in a first floor my plan was open the window while I ctb?

 

[cosifantutti]

they all died in a car accident 2 weeks ago

That's awful, losing your family so suddenly. I'm so sorry.

Did you want to ctb before the accident?
Can you get any help for all the distress you must feel?

 

[Umi__]

normally I wanna plan and do everything perfect for my ctb but I really don't have time. After my family died, their debts were left to me and it's impossible to cover these debts and it kinda trigger my anxiety and depression again

That's awful, losing your family so suddenly. I'm so sorry.

Did you want to ctb before the accident?
Can you get any help for all the distress you must feel?

I'm struggling with depression for 6 year and I wanna ctb for so many years ago but that accident is the trigger for me I guess

 

[アホペンギン]

yes I live in a first floor my plan was open the window while I ctb?

If they are loyal then they will stay at home but if not then they will escape.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

After my family died, their debts were left to me and it's impossible to cover these debts and it kinda trigger my anxiety and depression again

This is easily one of the more sad and heartbreaking situations I've come across here. I'm so sorry this happened but those words can't possibly enough.

 

[Umi__]

If they are loyal then they will stay at home but if not then they will escape.

they can't basically wait forever they are royal they always wait when I open my window but we are talking about 1 or 2 day