I will not fall asleep if I think about anything else than CTB. Otherwise, any other thought brings so much anxiety, stress and regrets. In fact, I cannot think about anything because its unbearable. All day I am thinking abut CTB. Does anyone have the same situation?
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Fadeawaaaay
Visionary
- Nov 12, 2021
- 2,160
I think i can safely say We all Think of CTB as a way of calming ourselves…It's a permanent solution to a lot of permanent problems
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,906
Yes, for me thinking about my death is the one comforting thought as once I am dead I will be free from all pain and suffering. Living is painful and I have so much dread towards everything. I hope to fall asleep and never wake.
Callie Arcale
It’s a tale told by an idiot signifying nothing
- Feb 10, 2021
- 852
Yes, I usually cry myself to sleep. I suffer from chronic pain, among other things, and it flares up at night. The only thing that brings me comfort is to think of the vastness of this unknowable universe and how insignificant I am on the grand scale of things, and the certainty of my death. At the end of the day, no matter what, at least I know I will not suffer forever. And that brings me a modicum of inner peace and relief.
I noticed the other day that I got both accupuncture and a massage, both meant to be healing, and for the entirety of both I was preoccupied with thoughts of CTB.
