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archipelago
Student
- Jun 27, 2021
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This is a word dump. I don't really have anyone else to tell right now. Sorry if it won't make sense, I can't be bothered to read it over before posting right now.
Two things:
First - I'll intentionally be vague, but a friend of a friend died recently (possible ctb) and helping my friend through this process is making me worried of the toll it will take on them when I go. While I haven't set an exact date for myself, I do have a date for which I will definitely have to be gone by.
Second - I'm much more bothered by how people react to my life situation, than the situation itself. Even in little ways, and with people who I wouldn't otherwise explain much to. IT PISSES ME OFF. FFS I'd just like it if people were actually happy for me that I'm away from an abusive piece of shit who used his childhood abuse as an excuse to do the same to me. I'm away from someone who is narcissistic, abusive, manipulative and who has no self-awareness. I legitimately feel happy for the first time in so long. I don't have to be around someone who laughs and makes fun of the things I enjoy, I'm free to do so many beautiful and wonderful things with people who are actually good, and I can be introspective in the most wonderful way that I missed so much.
Doesn't mean I want to stay on here (for a million other reasons), but just knowing that I'm actually happy and I can ctb in peace is wonderful, and I'd rather not have people take pity on me for being away from a human sack of garbage.
That's all, thank you for reading.
Two things:
First - I'll intentionally be vague, but a friend of a friend died recently (possible ctb) and helping my friend through this process is making me worried of the toll it will take on them when I go. While I haven't set an exact date for myself, I do have a date for which I will definitely have to be gone by.
Second - I'm much more bothered by how people react to my life situation, than the situation itself. Even in little ways, and with people who I wouldn't otherwise explain much to. IT PISSES ME OFF. FFS I'd just like it if people were actually happy for me that I'm away from an abusive piece of shit who used his childhood abuse as an excuse to do the same to me. I'm away from someone who is narcissistic, abusive, manipulative and who has no self-awareness. I legitimately feel happy for the first time in so long. I don't have to be around someone who laughs and makes fun of the things I enjoy, I'm free to do so many beautiful and wonderful things with people who are actually good, and I can be introspective in the most wonderful way that I missed so much.
Doesn't mean I want to stay on here (for a million other reasons), but just knowing that I'm actually happy and I can ctb in peace is wonderful, and I'd rather not have people take pity on me for being away from a human sack of garbage.
That's all, thank you for reading.