I need to die

[NotMuchLongerPlease]

Look- I really need a for sure idea. I've literally spent MONTHS doing nothing. I lay in bed all day. I have zero desire to get better because I've been such a piece of shit to those around me. I really can't come back from this. I have not done anything good in this world and have nothing. I ruined my only friendship by not getting out of bed and being a messy piece of shit and I can't live with how I've been. Each day that goes by is too many I really need a exit plan fast because my friend is taking me to inpatient care and I can't do it. I wasted high school and college and dropped out of community college and have no friends and no future and have used those around me to the point where I'm being avoided. Please someone. I get no joy from anything- I can't listen to music or play a game. I'm really dumb and have no working memory and can't even Keep up in food service anymore. I've spent months and months googling how to kill myself but I don't know what's going to for sure work, and I have no friends so I can't obtain much

 

[Lostandfound7]

Hey Love..my heart goes out to u.I can tell u that here, ur surrounded by "friends" who love u n r here for u..I know what it's like to feel hopeless.If at all possible,try to find just one thing that u enjoy doing n do it with all ur heart,mind,n strength..We r here to help u so plz feel free to vent..Ur gonna b ok..Sending u love and light
And u r NOT a piece of shit!!

 

[brokerofsecrets]

I don't think that anyone here will recommend a method for you, people here tend to just advise against a method they feel will be painful or ineffective. The method you choose has to be your own choice, it's all down to what you think is best for you. Also, I seriously, seriously think you should consider trying inpatient care, when I lived with my ex-girlfriend who worked in a mental health hospital I could see just how great the nurses and the support workers really are with helping people that are in your position. Although, it's your own choice what you want to do - I can only recommend you at least try inpatient care if you qualify for it :)

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I'm sorry for your suffering. It's not your fault that you don't get out of bed because you have depression. So, please don't be so hard on yourself.