Venting i need to die because i will never be perfect for him

[coolgal82]

i hate myself i hate my body i hate my brain i hate all of it i just want him to like me and never leave and i need to be absolutely perfect for that but i can't be like i don't have the self control to change the things i can change and there are other things i can't change i'm so fucking sick of this i'm so sick of existing i shouldnt've been born this is the worst i've felt in a long time i feel like i'm gonna throw up

edit: like 2-3 minutes after this i feel almost fine again. not fine but just kinda nothing but its somewhat better. why is my brain like this?

 

[astroproto]

It's cliche but you should know that you don't have to be perfect for someone to like you. I know tons of couples who have negative stuff to say against each other. Unfortunately though, people do have preferences and sometimes it's things that can't even be changed.

 

[darkandtwisty]

I want you to know, you're not alone in feeling like this. I fucking hate myself because no matter what I do, I'll always be the option he was stuck with. Not what he actually wanted.
But, at the same time, I also know that someone, somewhere is wishing to be with someone like me.
It's hard being an empath. We feel everything so deeply. Love and pain.
You are not alone in this.

 

[idontknowwhatiam]

i hate myself i hate my body i hate my brain i hate all of it i just want him to like me and never leave and i need to be absolutely perfect for that but i can't be like i don't have the self control to change the things i can change and there are other things i can't change i'm so fucking sick of this i'm so sick of existing i shouldnt've been born this is the worst i've felt in a long time i feel like i'm gonna throw up

edit: like 2-3 minutes after this i feel almost fine again. not fine but just kinda nothing but its somewhat better. why is my brain like this?

Honey, absolutely no one on earth is even close to being perfect. I would not recommend trying to achieve something that is unattainable for someone else.

 

[coolgal82]

Honey, absolutely no one on earth is even close to being perfect. I would not recommend trying to achieve something that is unattainable for someone else.

i feel like i have to though idk

 

[violetforever]

i bet hes not even perfect to himself so dont be so hard on yourself…

 

[coolgal82]

i bet hes not even perfect to himself so dont be so hard on yourself…

he's perfect to me though

 

[violetforever]

he's perfect to me though

i know, i have someone i pretty much think the same of. no one is worth beating yourself up over though.

 

[louboutinsuicide]

yeah i love it when they come back for a bit with a bit of hope but it always ends up extinguishing. there's always that giant ass stank ass elephant in the room upon recognition of the statistical improbability of this one actually working out

 

[tomatriste]

i too want to die for hopelessness of never being good enough for someone

you're not alone

 

[coolgal82]

i know, i have someone i pretty much think the same of. no one is worth beating yourself up over though.

idk he is