I need to CTB today

[sheepgirl]

I just can't do it anymore friends. Unfortunately I won't be able to SN, I think I may have been scammed and even if it does turn up it's going to intercepted. I just got paid last night, enough for a few nights in a hotel and to buy some stuff. What would be the best way to CTB in a hotel room? It's hard to know if I'd be able to hang myself untill I get there

 

[Source Energy]

How about SN from IC or CCS sources? those are legit. If you are in the US, CCS ships from within so you avoid customs. Even if it is intercepted, it is not illegal. So why worry? Get your SN, and some antiemetics at least, and ctb like a human being. Don't put yourself through more pain than you already are. We all want to die, like, yesterday, but some planning ahead can make all the difference. Calm yourself and think clearly how to proceed. Best wishes.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's understandable wishing to be gone from this cruel world so badly, it really shouldn't be so difficult for us to finally leave, and I get that it really can be so awful feeling so trapped here. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[FireWalkWithMe]

I would echo not to rush. As tempting as that is and as unbearable as the situation may be, rushing things massively increases the chance you will mess up. That can have severe ramifications for your life and your body.

 

[BritishPaul]

I say don't do it today. Calm down, take a breather, assess what the best situation for you is. Maybe go back on your CTB plans.