Help I need to but can’t function

[SolomonKado]

I can't get myself to function…!

I have everything on its way and some of it here. I have to clean up the room I've neglected for a year for the space. Also, I have to get other things set up. I would rather sit here vegging infront of the tv so I keep my mind preoccupied. If I don't stay this way then all of my thoughts come rushing back of how traumatic life has been. My chronic pain doesn't help.

I need this more than oxygen, but I can't function. I'm in one hell of a prison and can't figure out how to get out. I don't know what others can do for me, but I need help just the same? Please help me? I don't know what to do?

 

[im already reading]

I can't get myself to function…!

I have everything on its way and some of it here. I have to clean up the room I've neglected for a year for the space. Also, I have to get other things set up. I would rather sit here vegging infront of the tv so I keep my mind preoccupied. If I don't stay this way then all of my thoughts come rushing back of how traumatic life has been. My chronic pain doesn't help.

I need this more than oxygen, but I can't function. I'm in one hell of a prison and can't figure out how to get out. I don't know what others can do for me, but I need help just the same? Please help me? I don't know what to do?

i know how you feel, thats what i did before.
though i dont have chronic pain so im sure that makes it harder
there is no easy fix, unless you take medication to help you focus which is gonna make everything alot easier your gonna have to will yourself.
i clean my room once a month and i hate doing it, i just do it because it stays in my mind and whenever i zone out and take a break from distracting myself i actually start thinking and when i think my mind goes (what the fuck are you doing you idiot just sitting here you know whats gonna happen if you dont you idiot just do it literally you need to) which isnt the nicest but when i am consciously thinking about what i am doing, what i need to do, and whats gonna happen if i dont, it makes it harder to consciously keep being lazy.

also 3am motivation helps, whenever i randomly ust feel really motivated to do change my life and the world i'll spend 6 hours cleaning then become lazy again the next day

keep thinking about it, obsess over it, and remind yourself that your making the descision to let it stay bad. it really helps if somebody else comments on it aswell, once somebody said my room is messy as shit and kept saying they dont want to come in and then i was just like

"damn, im not letting that happen again."

also use a lux/vaccum to clean first because if you havent cleaned your room in a year then the buildup of stuff would be disqusting, there would probably be alot of dust in there too

 

[Conker]

go get you some horchatas that's what u

 

[SolomonKado]

thanks for all the support everyone. I know it's important. After everything that's happened in my life I just lost the will to function. I'll try some forced mental motivation and horchatas!

 

[SolomonKado]

I am still suffering from the loss of will to do anything. If I didn't get hungry once in a while I wouldn't feed myself. No idea how much I weigh now, but the last time I was at the doctors office a month ago I have lost 50 lbs over the past three months. I just want to binge watch tv so I keep my mind occupied and off the past trauma and pain. Even going to bed is rough and I have to have noise. What the fuck am I going to do?! I don't have the will to even ctb..

 

[Sweet Tart]

What the fuck am I going to do?! I don't have the will to even ctb..

Our bodies just keep breathing and it goes on and on senselessly. At some point will there be any type of consequences for your non-optimal functioning (social, health, financial, etc.)?

 

[SolomonKado]

Our bodies just keep breathing and it goes on and on senselessly. At some point will there be any type of consequences for your non-optimal functioning (social, health, financial, etc.)?

Absolutely. Sadly I haven't taken a shower or brushed my teeth for 4 months and any stink I may have I probably got used to it since I live with it. Only time I notice is when my sweat under my arms stink and I put on deodorant. Even my house is a horrible mess with my garage filled with bags of trash because I can't get myself to take out the dumpster to the curb. I don't throw or use much so it's not full to the brim. I used to be "a shower a day" kind of person. Clothes were never used over. Brush my teeth every single day and go to the dentist when I need to… Now I cancel doctor appointments because I can't get myself out of the house…I know I need to do a little for my CTB and ….I can't…