I don't think it's necessary to look for a specific goal or reason to live. If you still want to, then you can keep moving on. If you want to do something, then go ahead and do it, no matter how other may think (unless it is harmful to others ofc). The way I see it, death is home and life is a travel. You left home to travel, and go back there at the end. We all travel for different reasons. Some achieve it, and some don't. But at the end, what matters is that you enjoy your journey. What is good about hopelessly running after something you can't achieve? What's good in weath, society's acceptance, fame, ect...if you never enjoyed any of those? Therefore, I think the only reason why you should live is for your own happiness. What you want to do might be something very simple, like: "Today I want to have a strawberry cake.". It is small, but you still took your time walking to the store to get it, and you spent your money on it. Therefore, you've achieved something. And that is enough. We all take time to develop, so don't rush and just start at the smallest things. Sorry that this is a bit off topic, but I think it can help you somehow. Anyway, I wish you the best