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JC2111
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- Sep 1, 2024
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I've been with my boyfriend for just over a year. Lately things have been getting worse. He often pressures me into sex even though I don't want to do it. He will say things like 'do you not love me?' or 'I thought you wanted to be with me'. This is just the beginning of it. If I continue to say no, he will literally beg me until it wears me down and tell me that it's my fault he's horny so I should sort it out, even when I haven't initiated anything sexual. If this doesn't work, he resorts to calling me names and stuff like 'prude'.
A couple of days ago, he came over to my house and we were watching a movie together. Literally 10 minutes into the movie he was pestering me for sex. I told him no. I don't think I could have been any clearer. But still, he did it anyways. It lasted the whole movie. I'm sorry this is not very detailed, I just really don't want to think about it. It's been affecting my mood over the last couple of days. I can't stop thinking about it. It's made me feel worthless to him.
I was in recovery from suicide attempts and having depression. But this has sort of spiralled me out of control. I don't wanna be alive anymore honestly.
What do I do? I love him but can't go on like this…
A couple of days ago, he came over to my house and we were watching a movie together. Literally 10 minutes into the movie he was pestering me for sex. I told him no. I don't think I could have been any clearer. But still, he did it anyways. It lasted the whole movie. I'm sorry this is not very detailed, I just really don't want to think about it. It's been affecting my mood over the last couple of days. I can't stop thinking about it. It's made me feel worthless to him.
I was in recovery from suicide attempts and having depression. But this has sort of spiralled me out of control. I don't wanna be alive anymore honestly.
What do I do? I love him but can't go on like this…