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- Aug 1, 2024
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I already described why I ended up here in this post in another thread:
She said 6 years ago she said she would hold my hand when I CTB if nothing else worked. I ended up holding her hand while she died of a terminal illness this year.
I no longer have anyone in my life who would understand me as well as she did. Everyone offers me unsolicited advice starting with "you need to" or "you must".
Do you know what I need? I need someone to tell me it's ok to want to end it. And it's ok to do it. It's ok to prefer nothing to suffering. But not in general, like "it's ok for people to yadda yadda...".
The last thing I need, is for one person, to act like they truly care, and tell me, personally, that it's ok if I do it. That they understand me and it's fine. They may forget all about me tomorrow, I won't mind. I just need to hear it from someone.
I feel so comfortable here and I don't feel alone with you
Hey, long time I don't post here. I have been trying to change my life and get better, but the "better" never comes. Unfortunately I always come back to the suicide thoughts. This forum is my comfort place and I am so glad I am here to discuss CTB without any moralism. I feel so connected with...
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She said 6 years ago she said she would hold my hand when I CTB if nothing else worked. I ended up holding her hand while she died of a terminal illness this year.
I no longer have anyone in my life who would understand me as well as she did. Everyone offers me unsolicited advice starting with "you need to" or "you must".
Do you know what I need? I need someone to tell me it's ok to want to end it. And it's ok to do it. It's ok to prefer nothing to suffering. But not in general, like "it's ok for people to yadda yadda...".
The last thing I need, is for one person, to act like they truly care, and tell me, personally, that it's ok if I do it. That they understand me and it's fine. They may forget all about me tomorrow, I won't mind. I just need to hear it from someone.