Venting i need money or i'll die

[pinkdarlingg]

For people who say money doesn't buy happiness....shut the fuck up.

A good chunk of these people never grew up in a household where their parents had to work 16 hours a day to barely put a roof over their heads. They never had to skip out on food field trips and had to survive off food stamps. They never had to go to school even when they were sick in order to get a meal. all my life, I've been broke. I'm in debt. My credit score has dipped to the 500s and I'm only 20, my credit card maxed out to pay bills and food. I owe my school money for withdrawing from my courses because of my severe depression and I owe the hospital all my money for my psych visits, which I have tried so many times to get resolved but to no avail. I am currently crying like a pathetic little baby as I type this because if I don't scrap up rent money by January, I'll have to move back in with my parents who abused me physically and mentally my entire life. Moving out was supposed to make my life better, not worse.

Yes, I'm searching for jobs, it's a new area and I recently moved in and I'm still looking, calling places, etc. the hiring process won't be quick and I'm sure I won't get my first paycheck until 3 weeks from now. obviously, I have other problems and trauma that cause my depression, but my financial situation has always been a factor. I don't know...I just want to jump off a parking structure and end it all...I don't know what to do you guys...thanks for listening.

 

[brokensea]

For people who say money doesn't buy happiness....shut the fuck up.

A good chunk of these people never grew up in a household where their parents had to work 16 hours a day to barely put a roof over their heads. They never had to skip out on food field trips and had to survive off food stamps. They never had to go to school even when they were sick in order to get a meal. all my life, I've been broke. I'm in debt. My credit score has dipped to the 500s and I'm only 20, my credit card maxed out to pay bills and food. I owe my school money for withdrawing from my courses because of my severe depression and I owe the hospital all my money for my psych visits, which I have tried so many times to get resolved but to no avail. I am currently crying like a pathetic little baby as I type this because if I don't scrap up rent money by January, I'll have to move back in with my parents who abused me physically and mentally my entire life. Moving out was supposed to make my life better, not worse.

Yes, I'm searching for jobs, it's a new area and I recently moved in and I'm still looking, calling places, etc. the hiring process won't be quick and I'm sure I won't get my first paycheck until 3 weeks from now. obviously, I have other problems and trauma that cause my depression, but my financial situation has always been a factor. I don't know...I just want to jump off a parking structure and end it all...I don't know what to do you guys...thanks for listening.

You can go bankrupt on your bills so at least they would be gone. Not sure if you have a car but you can just download an app and do food delivery right away while you're looking for a job. Also if you want to work as a caregiver they will hire just about anyone right away. If you get a ton of hours you might make it in time.

 

[noaccount]

I am so sorry you're in this situation.
There is no debtor's prison in the U.S. so while unpaid hospital/medical bills may hurt your credit score, I'd ultimately opt to let them go unpaid so as to afford rent and food - your choice.
There is absolutely no shame in using food pantries.
UPS will also hire basically anyone right away right now - they're swamped till Xmas. In situations like this I also would put in an application with every single temp agency in your area - the recruiters there will help you find work because they get incentive pay if they get you hired somewhere fast.
I don't want you to have to move back in with family, that sounds awful. In times when I was unhoused, I also went to parts of the country where it was the warmest so I could somewhat comfortably live in a tent or iny car. Another way to find places to stay is to sign up with HelpX.net and/or WWOOF and apply to work places in exchange for room and board.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really sounds like you have suffered so much in life, it's such a cruel and horrific world and the reality is that there is simply nothing fair about any of this. But I wish you the best in whatever happens going forward.

 

[artpopbestalbum]

our society sucks, I wish you were not under those conditions. society has failed. I'm sending you a warm hug because that's all myself has to offer.

 

[Empyress]

for me money does not buy happiness assuming you have the essentials met, obv everyone needs food/shelter/etc, but im sure for some people it would, i doubt anyone is delusional enough to claim money does not buy happiness as an absolute, in any case i wish you the best, it definitely seems like difficult situation to deal with, especially when you already have mental health problems it can be hard to even convince urself to "try" at life sometimes

 

[𖣴 nadia 𖣴]

I don't know how helpful this will be but you could save some money on food with apps like Food Rescue US, Too Good To Go, and Karma which let you buy surplus food that would've been thrown away by restaurants, cafés, supermarkets and shops, at a reduced price. There's also an app called Olio where people give food or other household items to their neighbours for free by arranging a public/safe pick-up location. Another one is Flashfood which locates discounted groceries near you which are nearing their expiration dates. Maybe using a combination of these apps could help you get by for a few weeks until you get your paycheck.

 

[jessisme]

I don't know how helpful this will be but you could save some money on food with apps like Food Rescue US, Too Good To Go, and Karma which let you buy surplus food that would've been thrown away by restaurants, cafés, supermarkets and shops, at a reduced price. There's also an app called Olio where people give food or other household items to their neighbours for free by arranging a public/safe pick-up location. Another one is Flashfood which locates discounted groceries near you which are nearing their expiration dates. Maybe using a combination of these apps could help you get by for a few weeks until you get your paycheck.

That's pretty scary. I volunteer at a local food pantry and a lot of their donations come from surplus foods at grocery stores and some restaurants and food that has reached their expiration date. If this stuff gets sold I wonder where the food banks and food pantries will receive their donations from. Pretty scary to think.

 

[MissingThyme]

My sympathies and grief for your situation, @pinkdarlingg . Medical bills are wretched.

Do you know if the medical invoice could be reduced or forgiven under the hospital's Financial Assistance Policy? It's a newer thing from the Affordable Care Act, it might be worth looking into.

 

[𖣴 nadia 𖣴]

That's pretty scary. I volunteer at a local food pantry and a lot of their donations comes from surplus foods at grocery stores and some restaurants and food that has reached their expiration date. If this stuff gets sold I wonder where the food banks and food pantries will receive their donations from. Pretty scary to think.

Yeah, it should be mandatory for companies to donate a good portion, if not all, of their surplus. I'm hoping that these apps at least incentivise more shops/restaurants to not throw food away even if they're still charging a small amount for it. Maybe they donate what they can't sell, I'm not sure.

 

[noaccount]

That's pretty scary. I volunteer at a local food pantry and a lot of their donations comes from surplus foods at grocery stores and some restaurants and food that has reached their expiration date. If this stuff gets sold I wonder where the food banks and food pantries will receive their donations from. Pretty scary to think.

Nah it's fine, unless it's meat or cheese it's generally safe unless you can see visible mold or it smells "off." (If you have post-covid loss of sense of smell tread carefully I guess.) Anything that's canned, or dry shelf-stable goods, is usually good for at least a year past its expiration date, it's pretty arbitrary. I get lots of good produce and baked goods that stores just arbitrarily put out in the bins out back at the end of the day. People map some of the best spots to dumpster at on fallingfruit dot org.

 

[𖣴 nadia 𖣴]

Nah it's fine, unless it's meat or cheese it's generally safe unless you can see visible mold or it smells "off." (If you have post-covid loss of sense of smell tread carefully I guess.) Anything that's canned, or dry shelf-stable goods, is usually good for at least a year past its expiration date, it's pretty arbitrary. I get lots of good produce and baked goods that stores just arbitrarily put out in the bins out back at the end of the day. People map some of the best spots to dumpster at on fallingfruit dot org.

I think they meant that it's worrying that the expired food is being sold through apps so there's less of it being donated to food banks.

 

[noaccount]

oh ok yeah :(

 

[Lonerzepam]

You sound really desperate. I'm sorry. This might sound weird but have you considered selling drugs? Weed, pills, XTC? They're all very profitable especially XTC. If you're good with computers you can get some of the DN. Getting them is one part, selling another...You'd need people wanting to buy em. Sorry I can only speak from my experience when I was broke and in a similar situation, I totally understand if you won't consider this as an option. Very unusual suggestion I'd recommend trying something legal as stated above but nonetheless it's good to know such options exist. Just trying to help out sorry if it's not helpfull. I wish you the best and hope you can get through this somehow cheers

 

[Zegers]

There's nothing like that happiness, that's what doesn't exist.

 

[Superdeterminist]

I don't know what to do you guys...thanks for listening.

Sorry that life sucks. I like your Jisoo pic though :)