desolatebeing
help.
- Nov 7, 2021
- 6
i took a small break from the site and all and idk i feel the same. i really still want to to kill myself but i imagine all the people i'd disappoint and make upset. i mean i care and all but sometimes i really am so close to just jumping in front of a semi. my drinking hasnt gotten better. and i feel that's making it worse. when drunk i feel all powerful and the resolution feels at hand. when i drink i feel like i can kill myself with ease and leave the world the same. when drinking i feel like i can leave everyone without leaving a mark.