I need help

[loslassen]

been gone a couple of days trying to distract myself and do enjoyable things, but it all goes away quickly with time, I've been avoiding SS but I'm here again, I really need to vent and I've been feeling anxiety in the back of my mind all morning, now I think I'm starting to spiral.

I think my chronic illness is worsening again, I've been skipping my meds for weeks now and symptoms are catching up to me… but I haven't spoken up about it. I'm flat broke and haven't bought shampoo in almost 2 weeks, been doing runaway grocery shopping with just $20, and my room reeks of smell, I haven't washed clothes in almost a month because I can't buy detergent. I know it goes along my bad decisions and bad spending but im starting to relapse into those bad habits again and it's really depressing. not to mention my mother is absolutely psychotic, I think I'm gonna try and hang myself again tonight, maybe.

 

[LeonardoVisser27]

I honestly feel the same way sometimes. Except, that I do t have a chronic illness so I can't really complain, can I?

 

[pasho25000]

i was feeling the same way I decided to take my treatment again feeling a bit better now

 

[loslassen]

I honestly feel the same way sometimes. Except, that I do t have a chronic illness so I can't really complain, can I?

I think it's okay for you to feel that way regardless, that doesn't make your feelings any less valid, just even worse for me to have a chronic illness…

 

[Sleeper System]

I work like a slave to avoid this type of thing.
Sometimes I'm not sure it's worth it.
I don't think I could care about anything if I was terminal.
I almost wish if get something.