Help I need help with finding a way to go that actually works for me? :(

[captainhook]

Hi, I'm a 19 year old who doesn't have access to much, and I really don't know how to navigate this website while having an actual profile. Before, I use to explore threads on here with such ease but now that I actually created an account, I'm just a complete mess on here. I'd love any friends or tips if possible ♥ I only got an account now so I could get more advice (I guess reading wasn't enough, lol).

My methods are very limited and I've been on suicide watch for ages, only just recently got off of it now that I "convinced" my therapist that I'm healthy and fully recovered. Around 2 months back I buried a full knife into my right thigh 3 times in an frustrated attempt to kill myself and ended up getting 12 points/stitches. Now due to the situation I'm never allowed near ANYTHING sharp or possibly harmful... In the past I've attempted to overdose on a bottle of 600 pills consisting/focusing on Acetaminophen, as it was the only thing available to me at the time (I know, my method was trash I was really young and dumb 4 years ago) regardless I failed to follow through after hearing so many recovery cases (I didn't want to live and get stuck with liver issues for the rest of my life). I'm not allowed near usually the basic things that could hurt someone... But I could try sneaking anything if needed... can anyone help?.. What could I use? I don't mind pain personally, if any method of harm recommended involves physically hurting me or anything, from my previous experiences I never feel physically much so I'm okay with anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

There is a suicide resource complination on here with information about methods, I certainly wish that suicide is much easier in this world, I find it cruel how it's purposely made so difficult to die. But anyway I hope you find what you search for, it sounds so awful what you've been through.

 

[アホペンギン]

check out the PPH. There are lots of things there and information on many methods.
https://cdn8.bunkr.ru/162454_162400...cjke_and_Fiona_Stewart_z-lib.org-9ECfmInr.pdf

 

[captainhook]

It's so hard to navigate the website sometimes, thank you so much for your kind words I think this will help me a lot ♥ I'm going to try finding the compilation, it's just been so hard to find things while having an account now, before I could search things as a guest but it doesn't appear to be an option for new accounts it says I need more time/experience? Anyways thank you so much ♥♥♥♥♥

check out the PPH. There are lots of things there and information on many methods.
https://cdn8.bunkr.ru/162454_162400...cjke_and_Fiona_Stewart_z-lib.org-9ECfmInr.pdf

Thank you so much for the link this is exactly what I was trying to find earlier!! ♥

 

[locked*n*loaded]

It's so hard to navigate the website sometimes,

You need to get your post count up so that the Search Function will reveal itself to you in the upper right hand corner of the page.

 

[captainhook]

You need to get your post count up so that the Search Function will reveal itself to you in the upper right hand corner of the page.

Thank you so much! I'll try my best to get my posts up, I just started trying today hopefully soon I'll have most restrictions removed

 

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Thank you so much! I'll try my best to get my posts up, I just started trying today hopefully soon I'll have most restrictions removed