I need an objective view of whether I should go on or not since I can't find it anywhere else

[Sinnerofnow]

I'll give you guys a quick run down of my situation as of now so I can tell if I'm just a whiny bitch or if things have been bad for me

when I was 14 I was groomed by someone who was 17 at the time, before this I had no real experience of romance of feeling anything romantic at all towards someone, and when I fell for him I fell hard; It turned out I could be very obsessive when it came to love but I didn't understand these feelings in anyway at all. he ended up showering me with attention for maybe a month and then not talking to me, then he came back into my life however many months later showered me with attention then left. This all happened for 2 years before I finally had enough I had found someone who would actually love me and not leave all the time so I told him I never wanted to talk to him ever again. about a year and a half after that I got drunk at a party with my friends and hit him back up since things hadn't been going well with my bf at the time, we did the whole song and dance and I told myself that I wouldn't be sucked in this time and all would be fine but I was a fool. I focused all my attention on him broke up with my bf thinking that that was the best move and then as always he pulled away again. This really hurt me and I ended up doing a final confrontation with him where he told me that he would never love me and that I never even stood a chance, and after that I tried to take my life by taking all the pills in my cabinet which didn't work and I ended up being hospitalized, I had what felt like no one left at this point. I tired to start university and start fresh but my meds that I was forced to be on by my doctor made it so I couldn't wake up at all and made me super groggy meaning I had to drop out. I found some more friends but like always its all falling apart again, people who talk to me are starting to separate from me and ignore me and I just think its time I do it for real this time.

I don't feel like I have much left going for me but I would like to know what you guys think and if I'm just overreacting.

 

[jodes2]

You've been through some tough times recently, but you're still young and have loads of opportunities for change. You still have the best years ahead of you. Try to make positive changes! One thing at a time. Career, friends, love, hobbies, family. Split up problems and work on them when you have the energy. It's ok to take it slow, you have plenty of time, invest in your future, and you can start now. Just little things to make your life better and more fulfilling. I know it's hard when you've hit rock bottom, it all feels like a giant mess. But you can pick up the pieces bit by bit. Time is on your side

 

[FuneralCry]

The reality is that you simply cannot trust and rely on people, and it's true that humans are responsible for so much of the suffering that exists here in this world. Whether to continue existing or not is a personal decision that can only be made by the individual but anyway, best wishes.