sadghost
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- May 17, 2020
- 232
I've only gotten through about 25% of my life and I've struggled for most of it. I cannot even imagine living for 80+ years, the thought of that is horrifying to me.
When I think of the future, I just think about how much suffering lies ahead: bills, finding employment, maintaining employment, and most of all, not killing myself.
I can't believe we are expected to go to school + work for most of our lives. I'm so burnt out already and I'm only in college.. I feel so defeated. People laugh when I express that I feel "old" but I guess most people don't plan to prematurely end their lives..
My anhedonia and suffering only dissipates when I am sleeping. Is it much of a wonder why I want to sleep for eternity?
I resent the day I was conceived - the day that I was forcefully taken from the comfortable void and abused by life. Earth is a prison and this house is my cell.
When I think of the future, I just think about how much suffering lies ahead: bills, finding employment, maintaining employment, and most of all, not killing myself.
I can't believe we are expected to go to school + work for most of our lives. I'm so burnt out already and I'm only in college.. I feel so defeated. People laugh when I express that I feel "old" but I guess most people don't plan to prematurely end their lives..
My anhedonia and suffering only dissipates when I am sleeping. Is it much of a wonder why I want to sleep for eternity?
I resent the day I was conceived - the day that I was forcefully taken from the comfortable void and abused by life. Earth is a prison and this house is my cell.