roping
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- Oct 20, 2021
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by si, i mean suicidal ideation, survival instinct also has the same abbreviation which i think is ironic but yeah i thought id clarify. around a year ago, i was a lot more suicidal than i am now, in terms of my motivation to do so. i mean since then, i still am and always was suicidal in a way, but its not as much as it was. cognitively, i do still strongly believe it's a good way out, but my will to do it just hasnt been the same. blaming my own motivation for still being here doesnt sit well with me either.