doloris988
wingless
- Jan 9, 2026
- 8
even as i type the title out i already feel sick to my stomach but i literally cant help it and i wanna cry i hate being so attached to someone who fucked up my brain as a kid and messed me up for so long i feel so dependent on the fact that she was using me and i hate feeling like i need to be used again by her i wish i just never met her
im so painfully conflicted because i cut all contact and blocked her on everything and deleted every social i ever had conversations with her on and now all i have is memories of her to haunt me and it makes me sick because i can't even remember the bad shit she put me through just the times where i actually felt okay,,, it's backfiring so bad on me i feel like it's eating me from the inside out i feel so gross for missing her for loving her
im so painfully conflicted because i cut all contact and blocked her on everything and deleted every social i ever had conversations with her on and now all i have is memories of her to haunt me and it makes me sick because i can't even remember the bad shit she put me through just the times where i actually felt okay,,, it's backfiring so bad on me i feel like it's eating me from the inside out i feel so gross for missing her for loving her
