I feel the same. Essentially I only lived until 13yrs/6th grade. My life was taken away by bullies. After that what remained was my Innocence/naivety, which is cruelty chipped away by this cruel world. If you asked what i wished more than anything it would be a life in which I can be myself. However this world requires a crueler more realistic game for me to play. That is if I truly want to create that good life. (,: Life is a sick game for people like us.