Venting I miss being happy

[ALittleBurden]

I got sick and for some reason it got me into very sentimental mood.

Some random happy memories just pop up in my head from the times when I was a kid, when I could still feel lighthearted joy if everything was doing well. Even back then things would sometimes get horribly wrong but at least I could still enjoy the break from it - now I just can't really feel any happiness. No matter what I do, at what time or place, that sensation just won't come back.

It's just one more thing that kills me.

 

[Final Escape]

I miss being young before tragedies added up and things slowly went to hell lol! There was a time I at least was less damaged and hopeful, glowing and vibrant. Now I look like death warmed over. Not even makeup helps so I just stopped wearing it besides some lip gloss face moisturizer and anti face shine powder.