Venting I might have to SN soon if I become homeless

[Squiddy]

I just got home from work and my mom barged into my room and told me that I have 30 days to get out of her house because she's "scared of me" "I've become rude" (I'm just tired from working and it's stressing me out. I don't think I was rude as I tried to be nice), "I'm lazy," "I don't do anything" and how "I don't talk to her or anyone else in her house" (I don't because most of the time, I'm sleeping and when I do wake up, it's time to go back to work). She also told me not to use her washer or dryer anymore and how I can take my clothes to the laundromat and how she's kicking me off the health insurance and how I can pick up a second job to afford an apartment. I can feel myself tearing up. One job is already stressful enough, but I don't think I can do 2.

If I do become homeless, I'm done. I can't do this shit anymore. Life is too fucking painful

 

[Viafactorum]

Oddly enough I can empathize with this. This world is too cruel, nobody should be made to go through such rejection and suffering. I hope you find a way out.

 

[picklemick]

Keep looking for living alternatives, friends, other family etc. getting out of that environment might be all you need to start feeling better.

 

[Judy Garland]

Oh I know how hard that is what you're going through. Boy do I know. It's very scary and sad being homeless. You lose everything except a few pairs of clothing. It's very hard. I've been homeless. And now I'm afraid of buying things (like appliances, or even a pillow...I don't have a bed pillow) because I don't want to lose everything again. I know you want to end it all because of this. I do too, and I promised myself if I ever became homeless again, I would drink my SN before having to leave. I don't have any suggestions that you haven't thought of already. You're doing your best. Remember, you're doing your best all the time even when you think you aren't.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really is such an unfair life and to me it is horrifying how homelessness is even a thing in the first place. People should not have to suffer like that. I'm sorry that you are in this stressful and tiring situation. I hope that in whatever happens you find relief from your suffering.

 

[Darkover]

when life becomes too much to bear leave everytime leave

 

[Symbiote]

Does your job pay enough to get you a place to stay or at least in one of those efficiency apartments/hotels that charge $150/wk?

Like most parents, they are tired of seeing their adult children living in their house and want you to move out start your own life. Kind of shitty though to be kicked out when the whole world is going through inflation and sky-high prices on everything.

 

[Graytaichi]

I actually envy you. Overcoming the reactions of your loved ones are the hardest obstacles to overcome.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I'm really sorry that you're going through this Squiddy. You've been trying so hard to Recover all this time, only to have this happen to you. If I was going to be homeless soon, I'd be using the SN right away too, but I wish you didn't have to feel like you're being forced into it.

 

[TAW122]

I'm very sorry to hear about your circumstances and your situation is dire. I hope you are able to find a viable place for housing and/or arrangement to stay at a hotel/motel for a while. I would say keep your SN as closely, safely, and discreetly as possible, having an out/escape can be very liberating. Anyways, I hope things work out for you regardless of whatever choice you decide to make.

 

[Well-Edited Chaos]

I just got home from work and my mom barged into my room and told me that I have 30 days to get out of her house because she's "scared of me" "I've become rude" (I'm just tired from working and it's stressing me out. I don't think I was rude as I tried to be nice), "I'm lazy," "I don't do anything" and how "I don't talk to her or anyone else in her house" (I don't because most of the time, I'm sleeping and when I do wake up, it's time to go back to work). She also told me not to use her washer or dryer anymore and how I can take my clothes to the laundromat and how she's kicking me off the health insurance and how I can pick up a second job to afford an apartment. I can feel myself tearing up. One job is already stressful enough, but I don't think I can do 2.

If I do become homeless, I'm done. I can't do this shit anymore. Life is too fucking painful

Wow, that really sucks. The absolute definition of kicking a guy when he's down. Wish I had more to offer than just empathy.

 

[Life is unfair]

My mom kicked me out of her house when I was 27, that was 10 years ago. My best advise is to stay the hell away from drugs and alchohol. Get around great people for example toastmasters and jujitsu, and find work that is suitable for you and your personality.

Breaking up with my parents was the best thing for me. Now that I'm self reliant I don't take any more of their shit or play their games. Same thing with my other asshole family members.

Just hang in their and tough it out. Life can be really fucking hard and I get that. But life is a battle, and those who win are the ones that fight.

One other thing is I recommend afformations by Noah st John and iafform audios. Those are what saved my life. Good luck and God bless.

 

[Squiddy]

Does your job pay enough to get you a place to stay or at least in one of those efficiency apartments/hotels that charge $150/wk?

Like most parents, they are tired of seeing their adult children living in their house and want you to move out start your own life. Kind of shitty though to be kicked out when the whole world is going through inflation and sky-high prices on everything.

I'm currently looking for an apartment. I talked with one of my friends and she said me and her could get one together. I did apply for one, but they rejected me within 5 minutes because of "insufficient income" which I don't really understand because I make 2 times the amount plus my friend would have income too. I did email the place a few hours ago, but no response yet :(

I'm really sorry that you're going through this Squiddy. You've been trying so hard to Recover all this time, only to have this happen to you. If I was going to be homeless soon, I'd be using the SN right away too, but I wish you didn't have to feel like you're being forced into it.

I really do want a better life, but things have just gotten really shitty and I'm not seeing many options at this point

Wow, that really sucks. The absolute definition of kicking a guy when he's down. Wish I had more to offer than just empathy.

Yeah that's what I was telling one of my friends a few minutes ago. I would never do that if I had a kid :( I've been feeling overwhelmed ever since she's said it. She said she's gonna get an eviction notice. I think she's also kicking me out because I heard her talking to one of my grandma's about how she wants her to move in and that she can have my room

My mom kicked me out of her house when I was 27, that was 10 years ago. My best advise is to stay the hell away from drugs and alchohol. Get around great people for example toastmasters and jujitsu, and find work that is suitable for you and your personality.

Breaking up with my parents was the best thing for me. Now that I'm self reliant I don't take any more of their shit or play their games. Same thing with my other asshole family members.

Just hang in their and tough it out. Life can be really fucking hard and I get that. But life is a battle, and those who win are the ones that fight.

One other thing is I recommend afformations by Noah st John and iafform audios. Those are what saved my life. Good luck and God bless.

I only use weed and occasionally alcohol

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I really do want a better life, but things have just gotten really shitty and I'm not seeing many options at this point

For what it's worth, I hope you can manage to keep going in Recovery. If there's still a chance that you can be successful at it, then you owe it to yourself to try finding happiness. If it doesn't work out, then at least you have a plan B. I hope you can find another place to live.

 

[Symbiote]

I'm currently looking for an apartment. I talked with one of my friends and she said me and her could get one together. I did apply for one, but they rejected me within 5 minutes because of "insufficient income" which I don't really understand because I make 2 times the amount plus my friend would have income too. I did email the place a few hours ago, but no response yet :(

Well that's kind of her to want to room together. I wonder if it was apartment management policy to reject you, they're getting more stringent as the inflation continues and the housing market still rising. Have you tried doing a zillow.com search in your area for rentals but look for condos or townhouses that are landlord owned rather than apartment management owned. Landlords tend to be more lenient than apartment management offices, but then they also have the risk of screwing you over as well if you don't pay up or can be overbearing.

If you don't have a great credit history or none at all, then rental history will suffice followed by verifiable income via pay stubs. Worst comes to worse, they may need a cosigner from either your parents or hers.

 

[jawdropped123]

I just got home from work and my mom barged into my room and told me that I have 30 days to get out of her house because she's "scared of me" "I've become rude" (I'm just tired from working and it's stressing me out. I don't think I was rude as I tried to be nice), "I'm lazy," "I don't do anything" and how "I don't talk to her or anyone else in her house" (I don't because most of the time, I'm sleeping and when I do wake up, it's time to go back to work). She also told me not to use her washer or dryer anymore and how I can take my clothes to the laundromat and how she's kicking me off the health insurance and how I can pick up a second job to afford an apartment. I can feel myself tearing up. One job is already stressful enough, but I don't think I can do 2.

If I do become homeless, I'm done. I can't do this shit anymore. Life is too fucking painful

I just got home from work and my mom barged into my room and told me that I have 30 days to get out of her house because she's "scared of me" "I've become rude" (I'm just tired from working and it's stressing me out. I don't think I was rude as I tried to be nice), "I'm lazy," "I don't do anything" and how "I don't talk to her or anyone else in her house" (I don't because most of the time, I'm sleeping and when I do wake up, it's time to go back to work). She also told me not to use her washer or dryer anymore and how I can take my clothes to the laundromat and how she's kicking me off the health insurance and how I can pick up a second job to afford an apartment. I can feel myself tearing up. One job is already stressful enough, but I don't think I can do 2.

If I do become homeless, I'm done. I can't do this shit anymore. Life is too fucking painful

I hope you explained this to your mother i know that its hard and stressful to work all day and come home and your tired and on top of that your mother is mad. Its frustrating but i hope you get the chance to talk to her. In the meantime try to look for an affordable place to stay before she kicks you out or atleast look for a roommate. Have a great day

 

[whatevs]

I just got home from work and my mom barged into my room and told me that I have 30 days to get out of her house because she's "scared of me" "I've become rude" (I'm just tired from working and it's stressing me out. I don't think I was rude as I tried to be nice), "I'm lazy," "I don't do anything" and how "I don't talk to her or anyone else in her house" (I don't because most of the time, I'm sleeping and when I do wake up, it's time to go back to work). She also told me not to use her washer or dryer anymore and how I can take my clothes to the laundromat and how she's kicking me off the health insurance and how I can pick up a second job to afford an apartment. I can feel myself tearing up. One job is already stressful enough, but I don't think I can do 2.

If I do become homeless, I'm done. I can't do this shit anymore. Life is too fucking painful

I can't imagine how would life be without a mostly supportive family. It sounds like absolute hell. These people are basically pushing you to do it, it's disgusting.

 

[deathbylife]

I'm currently looking for an apartment. I talked with one of my friends and she said me and her could get one together. I did apply for one, but they rejected me within 5 minutes because of "insufficient income" which I don't really understand because I make 2 times the amount plus my friend would have income too. I did email the place a few hours ago, but no response yet :(

When you applied did you *co-apply* with your friend? Without both you and her income combined on the application, you may be denied. As someone stated before this, what with the housing crisis and inflation right now...

 

[Squiddy]

For what it's worth, I hope you can manage to keep going in Recovery. If there's still a chance that you can be successful at it, then you owe it to yourself to try finding happiness. If it doesn't work out, then at least you have a plan B. I hope you can find another place to live.

Hopefully. It's really stressing me out. My anxiety has been high all day and I might take a benzo soon or some weed if it doesn't improve

Well that's kind of her to want to room together. I wonder if it was apartment management policy to reject you, they're getting more stringent as the inflation continues and the housing market still rising. Have you tried doing a zillow.com search in your area for rentals but look for condos or townhouses that are landlord owned rather than apartment management owned. Landlords tend to be more lenient than apartment management offices, but then they also have the risk of screwing you over as well if you don't pay up or can be overbearing.

If you don't have a great credit history or none at all, then rental history will suffice followed by verifiable income via pay stubs. Worst comes to worse, they may need a cosigner from either your parents or hers.

I haven't looked on zillow, but I can start looking. I have terrible credit, but my friend's credit is good

I can't imagine how would life be without a mostly supportive family. It sounds like absolute hell. These people are basically pushing you to do it, it's disgusting.

I just came to the realization that I'm about to lose both my insurances :( my disability one because "I make too much" now and now my mom's

When you applied did you *co-apply* with your friend? Without both you and her income combined on the application, you may be denied. As someone stated before this, what with the housing crisis and inflation right now...

I put in the option in the application, but it still denied me

 

[noname223]

I feel really very sorry for you. I often read your posts and hope that you can somehow manage your problems and find a good solution. I also struggle a lot with work. I think you do a way better job than me on it. I know how horrible it is being tormented by mental illness and still trying to work.
It is just so unfair. I hope the argument with your family will get solved somehow. I cannot really write something that comforts you or solves your problems.
LIfe is so damn unfair.

 

[Squiddy]

I feel really very sorry for you. I often read your posts and hope that you can somehow manage your problems and find a good solution. I also struggle a lot with work. I think you do a way better job than me on it. I know how horrible it is being tormented by mental illness and still trying to work.
It is just so unfair. I hope the argument with your family will get solved somehow. I cannot really write something that comforts you or solves your problems.
LIfe is so damn unfair.

I originally wanted to cut my hours to 32 because of the stress, but I probably won't be able to now because my mom is throwing everything on me from health insurance to probably my car next

She said July 31st is the date I have to leave by. She hasn't gotten an eviction notice yet, but if I can't come up with a solution and end up on the street, I'll have no choice, but to SN, but I'll be sending her a delayed "fuck you" letter to her stating all the things she did wrong and how terrible of a mother she truly is

 

[locked*n*loaded]

.............but I'll be sending her a delayed "fuck you" letter to her stating all the things she did wrong and how terrible of a mother she truly is

I would never tell you what to do, and I don't presume to know all of your circumstances, but please think this one through, if it indeed comes to this. If your ctb isn't successful, you never know what might happen down the road of life, how things change, how people change, and if you come through this, this may be a bridge too far, something that isn't easily taken back. Also, I think it is better to go out on as positive a note as you can, should you have to. Another option, if things really fall apart and you ctb, would be to leave a note and just say nothing to your mom, or about your mom, in the note. That sends a message in and of itself. Of course, whatever you do is up to you, entirely, and I hope all this works out somehow for you in this horrendous mess.

 

[almaranthine]

my mom had screwed me over and kicked me out of her home approximately 6 times. she is mentally ill, doesn't seek treatment, and codependent. she would talk me into moving back in with her when I was younger, claim me as a dependent on her taxes, and then throw me out month 7. later on, as my life became much worse, she would step in and be the "hero" offering me a "home" but ironically the only reasons I was in such depraved and violent, abusive situations was because of her making me leave in the first place. It's her birthday today. I didn't text or call. I hope she's alone and has no one. Because of her this past kick-out, I had to move in with an abusive alcoholic who tried to kill me. Now I am stuck on a lease at this apartment alone, running out of money. I will only be able to afford one more month, and will likely be homeless for my birthday in august. I hope to be dead actually.

 

[picklemick]

I know you're struggling but keep trying to separate from your parents. Going it alone is hard but you might feel a sense of freedom. Do you like people? Csn you afford a flight? Go to Mexico or Nicaragua. Work at a bar. Live on the beach. Your parents won't know what happened to you and you can live a csre free life for as long as you choose.

 

[Salvation_]

I know you're struggling but keep trying to separate from your parents. Going it alone is hard but you might feel a sense of freedom. Do you like people? Csn you afford a flight? Go to Mexico or Nicaragua. Work at a bar. Live on the beach. Your parents won't know what happened to you and you can live a csre free life for as long as you choose.

Is the solution really as something simple like this? Lol

 

[almaranthine]

Is the solution really as something simple like this? Lol

It isn't. This is some idealistic dream world solution. Sure, go to some foreign country where you have no connections, don't know a damn soul, don't speak the native tongue, and just "work at a bar"... no chance of getting sex trafficked AT ALL.... even if you manage to stay safe, you have no knowledge of the laws and regulations of that country, you will have to work within that economy, and on top of all of that live alone? The beach doesn't cure suicidal depression, but it's not a bad place to go out.

 

[jupiterwinds]

I can't safely live with my mom even though I really need to and I've been chronically ill and disabled my whole life (also finally got my official autism diagnosis). I'm high risk for COVID complications due to my health issues and not only does she refuse to take COVID precautions but she actively lies to me about them and lied to me about HAVING it. She's forcing me to stay in an emotionally abusive living situation with my ex in another state. My dad has a ton of money and won't even help me with medical bills. It fucking sucks. Why have kids if you're going to selfishly abandon them when they need you??

 

[MyChoiceToLeave]

I'm in the same situation except my family didn't warn me when they were going to throw me out. I'm out now and living off small income but it will turn to nothing soon and I am not sure I can ctb with SN because of valproic acid in my blood
We need a ss roommates section because we would be with people that understand our plight or at least we wouldn't be homeless

 

[Squiddy]

I'm in the same situation except my family didn't warn me when they were going to throw me out. I'm out now and living off small income but it will turn to nothing soon and I am not sure I can ctb with SN because of valproic acid in my blood
We need a ss roommates section because we would be with people that understand our plight or at least we wouldn't be homeless

That'd be nice if there was a section and that sucks they threw you out :(