Venting I may have schizophrenia. Or my family is trying to screw me up.

[Notwinnernotawin]

I'm hearing voices in my head. People make jokes about me when I go outside. I can hear my family being mean and talking about listening my thoughts and accusing me of raping people when I was a kid and about hating me and about how me and my mom will die very soon and they're torturing me they won't shut up it's all magic stuff because idk about other countries but here it's normal to do magic. They say people can hear the voice in my head and people react to everything I do there's no way to fix it. They won't let me do things not even pray because they say whatever I do to say will happen the other way. I couldn't even log in here but thankfully my password was saved because they know all my passwords. My mom is receiving calls insulting us and I can't take it anymore I'm sorry I'm a cry baby but I had to tell somebody. I'm taking some medication for schizophrenia but the voices won't stop they tell me I'm not schizophrenic and the medication is only making me sleep. They even tell me when I sleep my spirit gets aggressive and attacks everyone. They know everything I've said and done and they talk a lot of bad stuff about my relationship with my mom. I'm sorry I wrote everything wrong I'm just so nervous.

 

[Aap]

You are taking medication currently. I would strongly encourage you to speak with your doctor. S/he can help.

 

[Viro_Major]

The daughter of a friend of mine got paranoid schizophrenia and I've encountered other persons with this "handicap" who were loveable persons, at times well integrated after more or less an adaptation period. If you've got only positive symptoms, the pronostic can be good if stabilised early. Then it's possible to live an almost normal life, don't panic just yet. Talk with your psychiatrist to change your medication without waiting, if you feel the benefit to get helped is a necessity but it looks like it is for now, how you express a distress.

 

[Life_and_Death]

We're you like this before the medication? If not then it could be the medication causing this. I was on one that made me go insane and the thoughts just wouldn't stop

 

[Notwinnernotawin]

The daughter of a friend of mine got paranoid schizophrenia and I've encountered other persons with this "handicap" who were loveable persons, at times well integrated after more or less an adaptation period. If you've got only positive symptoms, the pronostic can be good if stabilised early. Then it's possible to live an almost normal life, don't panic just yet. Talk with your psychiatrist to change your medication without waiting, if you feel the benefit to get helped is a necessity but it looks like it is for now, how you express a distress.

We're you like this before the medication? If not then it could be the medication causing this. I was on one that made me go insane and the thoughts just wouldn't stop
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I went to a neurologist and he prescribed risperidone.

I'm hearing voices in my head. People make jokes about me when I go outside. I can hear my family being mean and talking about listening my thoughts and accusing me of raping people when I was a kid and about hating me and about how me and my mom will die very soon and they're torturing me they won't shut up it's all magic stuff because idk about other countries but here it's normal to do magic. They say people can hear the voice in my head and people react to everything I do there's no way to fix it. They won't let me do things not even pray because they say whatever I do to say will happen the other way. I couldn't even log in here but thankfully my password was saved because they know all my passwords. My mom is receiving calls insulting us and I can't take it anymore I'm sorry I'm a cry baby but I had to tell somebody. I'm taking some medication for schizophrenia but the voices won't stop they tell me I'm not schizophrenic and the medication is only making me sleep. They even tell me when I sleep my spirit gets aggressive and attacks everyone. They know everything I've said and done and they talk a lot of bad stuff about my relationship with my mom. I'm sorry I wrote everything wrong I'm just so nervous.

They say I was never a family member. They say they're my "ex uncle and aunt and ex cousins" and even one side of my family that I don't even personally know is roasting me. Even my "ex best friend" 's boyfriend whose voice I never heard is haunting me. They say some people will kill us. That every threat that came before was schemed to scare me. I don't know what to do anymore. My mom took my rope a few weeks ago and threw it away. I don't have options because my plan to buy SN failed. My last resource is strangulation.