Same. Except the only two people who know are my therapist and psych and at this point, I've made up my mind, figured out how, so I don't care about much else. I don't answer texts or phone calls or emails.
One of them said once it is sad but it is my choice, the others just say the usual bullshit like 'things will get better' or 'you should go see a doctor'
I tried to ignore everybody once, i can't do it, i'm too weak and need social interaction. It just lasted a week and even half year later my friendships are a ittle broken by it.
I have social anxiety, but if i stay too long without talking to someone it is worse than anxiety. I'm that guy who is always "busy" when people want to go out but once in a few months i have to meet myy friends or i'll go insane and get dragged into a pit of self hatred and despair.
I know how you feel, half of the time i hide myself from people is because i'm sure they don't want me with them, even if sometimes they say the opposite
