Venting I Made a Mistake

[darkandtwisty]

I made a mistake and chose to make a big change. I moved out of my apartment, quit my job, and moved halfway across the country with a man who claimed to love me.... problem is he lied.
I was going to end it but said I'd give it one last chance. Now I have nothing and I am isolated. 1200 miles from home with an unfaithful piece of shit for a "boyfriend" of almost three years. His response to cheating: because I am a man and because I can.
So, now I no longer have access to my method and no funds to get a new one. Just 2000mg of primidone from a last attempt and 30mg of oxycodone. We all know attempting to OD is typically not effective, but I have nothing left to lose. Hell, maybe it'll get me away from him at least.
**Update**
Found my "boyfriend's" gun... it's an option I didn't want because after the abuse I endured in my marriage, I didn't want to go out violently if I could avoid it. After I confronted him, he hid the gun but left in the bedroom. Took the bullets out but put them in his nightstand. So he left both pieces in the room in a sad attempt to hide it. If he really gave a fuck, he would've kept it on his person. Or not cheated to begin with.
The whole thing is a joke to him and he said it's not even that big of a deal. He laughed at me and then fell asleep on the couch. Knowing he hurt me. I took a chance, a leap of faith and had hope because I felt safe with him. Now it's gone. I lost everything.... because I loved and trusted him.

 

[hopeless302]

don't do it OP. I know it hurts being cheated on, and enduring all the lies and abuse, but don't give him the satisfaction. Is there any way to go back home and leave his cheating self behind?

 

[darkandtwisty]

I don't know. I have no money, no job, and nowhere to live. No family or friends here. We just moved here last week. I left everything 1200 miles behind.
I found a strong cord and redid my slipknot. I moved everything of his to the spare bedroom last night and this morning he's acting like nothing happened.

 

[hopeless302]

I don't know. I have no money, no job, and nowhere to live. No family or friends here. We just moved here last week. I left everything 1200 miles behind.
I found a strong cord and redid my slipknot. I moved everything of his to the spare bedroom last night and this morning he's acting like nothing happened.

would family/friends back home be willing to hep fund your move back? It might be embarrassing to ask, but I think you should give yourself a chance to escape from this.

 

[BlockedintheUK]

@darkandtwisty Wait a moment please. You can contact your embassy they may be able to help also you can contact Domestic abuse charities for help. Hell even posting on a Reddit for the city / town / country you are in may attract a lot of people who want to help.

Even a quick reddit post on your cities subreddit may get you offers of help.

Also swallowing your pride and asking friends or family is better than swallowing a bullet.

I think you should exhaust all options before dying. If you die he will probably use your death for attention validation and sympathy.