Most people here don't like life. But I love life, I like it when the rain hits me in the face. But this situation in which I find myself and from which there is no escape. I have tried so much but it always catches up with me. It's like all the energy has been sucked out of me and I'm about to give up. Constant fear is my companion. I am done with this bullshit I just need to find the courage to go through with it. Is anyone else going through this?
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But this is the Recovery section...
I cannot really relate to it. But when I remember my manic episode life was very nice to be honest. Like it had extremely bad consequences but if I could have this manic state for the rest of my life without any negative repercussions I could also say that I love life.
Reminds me of Adam Maier Clayton who said life is a unique experience and you have to squeeze everthing out of it. In the end he commited suicide
still.
I think most people who say life is beautiful and at the same time want to die see suicide often as last resort. Maybe you can try for example therapy if you have not tried it? If this is the case recovery could be a good place. But at the same time I understand that you want to vent about your life. Venting about suicidality and life usually happens in suicide section I think.
Not fully sure about it. I think also people who say they love life (in general) can hate their specific situation so much that they want to exit it.
Reminds me of Adam Maier Clayton who said life is a unique experience and you have to squeeze everthing out of it. In the end he commited suicide
still.
I think most people who say life is beautiful and at the same time want to die see suicide often as last resort. Maybe you can try for example therapy if you have not tried it? If this is the case recovery could be a good place. But at the same time I understand that you want to vent about your life. Venting about suicidality and life usually happens in suicide section I think.
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Mr2005
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- Sep 25, 2018
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I don't hate life I hate mine
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No. I wanted to express that contemplating suicide is something very ambivalent. I think there are many people who commit suicide and still think that they love life (in general.) But cannot endure their current situation. I explained it more in detail above.
I'm pleased that you love life!
May I ask what the situation is which is making you feel trapped?
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- Apr 13, 2021
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Damn I am stupid that is my fault. Lol. I thought it was suicide discussion. Sorry!
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Foresight
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- Jun 14, 2019
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Yes. I love life too but I'm in a bad situation that's not easily fixed. I have severe ptsd and fear is a constant for me too.
I'm just going day-by-day at this rate and keeping my relationship with ctb open. I'm also staying true to my ability to enjoy what I love until that day. I want to feel I embraced as much as I could on my last day.
I'm just going day-by-day at this rate and keeping my relationship with ctb open. I'm also staying true to my ability to enjoy what I love until that day. I want to feel I embraced as much as I could on my last day.
roaming_soul
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- Dec 29, 2021
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I relate so much! I am so in love with life. People not so much
Its like there are 2 of me living in one body - one who wants to make the most of life and the other who cannot wait to "go home". No matter what, the feeling of wanting to "go home" follows, even if I am home. It's draining. And confusing. I told myself to decide on one and I chose 'life', yet the feeling persists. I don't know...I just don't know how anybody does it. I don't know about you, but this inner-dichotomy makes me feel like a failure.
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Istanbulite
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- Jan 14, 2022
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I still get bits of joy every now and then and it all makes sense then, i to enjoy simple things too like rain, cold but not freezing wheter, ice cream, i see everyone out there having joyfull, fullfilling life (thats very diferent to happy lifes) and i truly envy them, like a child looking out the window the other kids play. i see so much beauty all arround yet i can only taste a bit so little to temeber me how awfull i am.
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I'm gonna pull the classic "I love life but it hates me". I'm trying to figure out how to conquer it.
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