Usako0504
Member
- Mar 1, 2020
- 43
I made the mistake of getting into a relationship with an ex of a (now former) friend. This friend had broken up with that ex because they had cheated and I never, ever excused them and helped them get into therapy and stopped them from CTB. I never meant for romantic feelings to happen, and my friend had moved on and went into a new relationship. They've been with another person for months and asked me to stay friends with their ex to make sure they didn't CTB.
I know that person fucked up horribly but at the end of the day, they got help for their addictions and they started working to become better.
The truth is that they moved on quickly, within months but I've been single for years since my last relationship that was abusive. I had one brief 3 week long fling that ended because that person was racist and sexist, and all of my friends said I basically deserved it for Even entertaining someone like that but this partner has been the kindest I've ever encountered.
I told my friend, I was told to maybe wait but I didn't want to anymore and their reaction was horrible. They accused me of not being genuine and that I sought out to hurt them.
They went and told everyone we knew and within an hour every single person I knew in that friend group blocked me and cut me off.
I had built that friend group up for years, it was the only thing that stopped me from CTB before, I planned trips for us, checked in with people when they disappeared or went through difficulties. I don't have a good family this was all I had. It's all gone now.
I deserve to die. I want to die. I want to kill myself.
I know that person fucked up horribly but at the end of the day, they got help for their addictions and they started working to become better.
The truth is that they moved on quickly, within months but I've been single for years since my last relationship that was abusive. I had one brief 3 week long fling that ended because that person was racist and sexist, and all of my friends said I basically deserved it for Even entertaining someone like that but this partner has been the kindest I've ever encountered.
I told my friend, I was told to maybe wait but I didn't want to anymore and their reaction was horrible. They accused me of not being genuine and that I sought out to hurt them.
They went and told everyone we knew and within an hour every single person I knew in that friend group blocked me and cut me off.
I had built that friend group up for years, it was the only thing that stopped me from CTB before, I planned trips for us, checked in with people when they disappeared or went through difficulties. I don't have a good family this was all I had. It's all gone now.
I deserve to die. I want to die. I want to kill myself.