You've been through a lot I can feel. You're pretty strong to have endured it for that long. Only if people were kinder to not hurt others. What you told makes sense. Even though adults don't make any remark, they can see it very well and judge. They can't help it either. I barely go out and when I do, I wear masks. But when everyone stops using masks, I can't hide behind my cover anymore. I can't show my face out to the world. I hope to be gone by then. It is the single biggest reason for me as well.
I open up only here. Do you express your feelings to anyone irl? Do they seem to understand? Do you also imagine how your life would be if not for this condition?
I'm so sorry you also go through this. I have not expressed these feelings for years it's why I been so depressed and miserable if only someone caught on during my teens I also don't open up about how I feel because if I do they will try to throw me in a psych ward and tell me "it gets better" and all that bs. I do imagine it would have been different I would feel more connected to humanity and not feel so isolated lonely and excluded and empty all the time .
My biggest regret because of this condition Is I wish I CTB during that time I regret staying alive so long only to suffer in more emotional pain and heartache. Acne destroys lives, and it really does things to your mental health when people make such mean rude comments about it like I remember the remarks people said to me in the past about it like "just drink water" people were so cruel. It all hurt at the time and I had know one to turn to to talk about these awful experiences. Unfortunately I'm at my end. I'm beyond tired and exhausted.
I'll never live a normal social fulfilling life
Then you have lost your connection.
That's about the worst thing that can happen.
It takes a long time to rebuild it.
But it is possible if you are aware of it and seek and accept help.
Maybe medication can help for a short time - but often it only covers up underlying problems.
Thank you. I been on antidepressants for years, it does indeed mask the issue and it doesn't solve it.
yes I am noticing I have lost connection to humanity and I'll never be the same after so many life awful events the only way is to die and be done with life and be at peace. It's too late unfortunately