Venting I know that I will die young.

[RedPanda]

It's strange, my life right now feels like a book and I'm on the final chapter. I can just feel that I'm going to die soon, whether I choose to kill myself or something kills me, I just know that I'm going to die soon.

I don't know exactly how to explain it. I can feel it, as if the grim reaper was breathing on my shoulder, waiting for me to take my final breath.

 

[FuneralCry]

I feel like I will die young too. I never want to reach old age, I fear it. I cannot imagine myself being much older. I have existed for long enough. The thing I want is to fall into an eternal sleep.

 

[ClownMe]

I can just feel that I'm going to die soon, whether I choose to kill myself or something kills me, I just know that I'm going to die soon.

Same, except sadly nothing is going to kill me, im going to have to kill myself.

 

[insanedoomer]

It's strange, my life right now feels like a book and I'm on the final chapter. I can just feel that I'm going to die soon, whether I choose to kill myself or something kills me, I just know that I'm going to die soon.

I don't know exactly how to explain it. I can feel it, as if the grim reaper was breathing on my shoulder, waiting for me to take my final breath.

I feel like I will die young too. I never want to reach old age, I fear it. I cannot imagine myself being much older. I have existed for long enough. The thing I want is to fall into an eternal sleep.

it remembers be that i've existed for long enough , and it's time for me to admit that i'd my final line i should ctb so soon , but i did n't have lethod so the idea still here , i don't wanan grow old .

 

[Snake of Eden]

It's strange, my life right now feels like a book and I'm on the final chapter. I can just feel that I'm going to die soon, whether I choose to kill myself or something kills me, I just know that I'm going to die soon.

I don't know exactly how to explain it. I can feel it, as if the grim reaper was breathing on my shoulder, waiting for me to take my final breath.

I used to feel that way but death never came. It is a just a mere sense of entitlement you are having but in reality you have to earn death somehow

 

[zapffes_son]

Yeah. I always had this sense that I had no future, yet still did whatever I could to survive, make a living, fix my problems, etc.

Well. Now I know there was a reason for that! Sucks that I have to do it myself, my SI is pretty damn strong, but I suppose that's the final delicious humilation I have to suffer through.

 

[HelloAllYouPeople]

Same, I'm only seeing how far I can keep living right now.
Accepting the fact that I will die young was scary. It's mourning for yourself and going through grief for someone who's still alive.
I've given up on big dreams and what-ifs now. It's freeing at least. I dont have to worry about careers and financial plans and drifting away from my friends anymore.

 

[Stuckaf2]

I also try to convince myself I am at the end of it... but am I... my body is healthy so I guess I will suffer longer

 

[fox_wannabe]

strange, seam like you are not the only one. Death seam to be just around the corner. I am only afraid of the pain before It. After It I know I will be free.