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citadelofme
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- Sep 29, 2024
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i know that my life is only going to get worse, i have basically insured i will never be able to get a stable job or ever be able to afford to live happily. the world is shitty and im a deeply unlikable person haha. ive been thinking of killing myself since i was 9 but i've always been terrified of what happens after death. what if my soul is still conscious? and im just unable to do anything? what if im able to think, and feel and everything but never able to do anything? is that worse than my painful existence? i hate that nobody knows what happens after death. everytime i think of killing myself i wonder which is worse, this disgusting , terrible life or possibly being paralysed in my soul, unable to do anything for the rest of eternity. i wish i could just numb everything and never feel anything again, i wish the world was a better place, i wish i knew what happened after death.