Rocksandsand
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- May 26, 2019
- 396
... and then SI kicks in. Worrying about my brother and dad and where my dog will go.
Hi Rocksandsand,... and then SI kicks in. Worrying about my brother and dad and where my dog will go.
I understand you, I have a similar problem cause I love my mother, and I can't avoid thinking about the precise moment when she will learn that I'm dead.@IsadoraBeauxdraps SI is Survival Instinct. So I'll be set on suicide for the first 24 hours and then the contemplation of how much I will be hurting other people sets in... It's not sustainable living for other people but it's enough to make me feel guilty as hell when I'm in the middle of the SN regime
I'm sure eventually your love of others will become secondary to your need to find your peace and it sounds like it's just a matter of waiting it out until your heart is ready to let go. I still hope that you'll find away around the crap that's infesting your life but if not, there's always people here for you as you wait.@IsadoraBeauxdraps SI is Survival Instinct. So I'll be set on suicide for the first 24 hours and then the contemplation of how much I will be hurting other people sets in... It's not sustainable living for other people but it's enough to make me feel guilty as hell when I'm in the middle of the SN regime