I keep ruining my life thinking I'm going to CTB.

[spiritus]

I keep ruining my life thinking I'm going to CTB. But if I can't find the necessary courage to CTB. I'm afraid of the possibility of having to live this life that I've completely ruined.

 

[deathxo]

That sounds like a fucked up situation to be in :(
I try to keep up with the bare minimum in life, not like I have the capacity to do much more, but I worry about not finding the right method.. I worry about continuing to live just because I can't decide how to kms.

 

[doomdoll]

i truly hope you're able to make the decision that brings you the most peace.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Same here. I stopped caring about a lot of things which eventually ruins my life more and more, under the impression that I'll be gone soon and it won't even matter. But here I am...

 

[RobinWhoLostItAll]

i feel that a lot too, ive made so many doors shut, ive fucked up all my relationships so much, this world is becoming so tiny and suffocating, the things stopping me is really that i cant buy any supplies and i havent been able to PSH

 

[FailureToAll]

I do that too